01-02-2010, 08:47 PM
Join Date: Aug 2009
| | Re: I think I belong here now
I almost lost it today in Ikea. My parents and I went today for something fun to do. I got really angry while we were shopping. It felt like the whole store was a constant reminder of the fact that I have no home to decorate. I might not even have a place by next year at this time depending on how things go with my job. I almost wanted to yell at my parents and say, "must be nice to have a home!" I know that is totally uncalled for.
I think my feelings are due to my divorce and the constant travel status with my job. For the past 6 months I've been living out of my car and suitcase. I've probably traveled close to 20,000 miles. I think I'm reaching a breaking point.
This whole situation is totally unfair. I should be the one sitting in my old house. The house I poured a lot of blood, sweat and tears into renovating. Instead my ex, the one who decided to divorce, is living in the house with all of our new appliances, tv and a freaking swimming pool! And where am I? In my childhood bedroom at 9:30 on a Saturday night!