11-03-2009, 08:18 PM
Join Date: Aug 2009
| | Re: I think I belong here now
Last weekend was tough. It was good to see my brother and sister-in-law; however, the circumstances as to our visit was very difficult. I don't think my sister-in-law's father will make it much longer. His body has already started shutting down.
Everyone seemed okay and was dealing with things fairly well. However, when I saw my sister-in-law's mother, I immediately started crying. I felt in a way we are both going through a difficult grieving process.
I haven't spoken to my H in over a week. No calls, texts or emails. I need to get in touch with him to tell him that I'm coming next week to pick up some more of my stuff. I don't want him or his new puppy anywhere near.
I am dreading even talking to him.
This week has been better. I am accepting the fact that I will soon have an ex-H. I know I will make it and time will make things better.
A big part of me wants to go out to the bar, have too much to drink and flirt with every guy who looks my way. It would be nice to know that someone finds me attractive.
I guess I'll settle for my dog by my side and a good glass of wine.