Hi don t know where to start,
met my H when i was 15 years old great love and all that comes with it marriage 3 years later 2 boys now adults.
i lived my life as the model wife always pretending to have it all
handsome H handsome boys beautiful everything etc etc.
Got to tell you i ve been unhappy since day one, everytime we had an argument which is either about him consuming and running of for days and burning any money he could get his hands on, and after that having his whole family blaming me and getting around the table with my H and critising me for his actions and so on , he always went behind my back to help his family since he s the black sheep of the family he needs to buy
their love all the time. and enen after all the back stabbing from his family he still cant cut the ombilical cord, everytime we have an argument he walks away and goes straight to his family to report and discredit me knowing they are and always will be my enemys.
And so i have put up wiyh all this crap WHY!!!
because i am materialistic,or because so afraid of being alone and that no one will ever want me !!!!!
or out of fear (find myself a job)
my self esteem is so low like what can i be good for.
he is now at his family again left on thursday emptied his bank account and called me last night to tell me he was not coming back. AGAIN .
I WANT TO SEPERATE but dont have the guts to do it.
i dont know if its love or just (afraid of change)
i always miss him when he s not around and all i do is mop around the house .
never had real friends
so i am always alone
dont want to write anymore.
met my H when i was 15 years old great love and all that comes with it marriage 3 years later 2 boys now adults.
i lived my life as the model wife always pretending to have it all
handsome H handsome boys beautiful everything etc etc.
Got to tell you i ve been unhappy since day one, everytime we had an argument which is either about him consuming and running of for days and burning any money he could get his hands on, and after that having his whole family blaming me and getting around the table with my H and critising me for his actions and so on , he always went behind my back to help his family since he s the black sheep of the family he needs to buy
their love all the time. and enen after all the back stabbing from his family he still cant cut the ombilical cord, everytime we have an argument he walks away and goes straight to his family to report and discredit me knowing they are and always will be my enemys.
And so i have put up wiyh all this crap WHY!!!
because i am materialistic,or because so afraid of being alone and that no one will ever want me !!!!!
or out of fear (find myself a job)
my self esteem is so low like what can i be good for.
he is now at his family again left on thursday emptied his bank account and called me last night to tell me he was not coming back. AGAIN .
I WANT TO SEPERATE but dont have the guts to do it.
i dont know if its love or just (afraid of change)
i always miss him when he s not around and all i do is mop around the house .
never had real friends
so i am always alone
dont want to write anymore.