Re: I'm losing my husband and best friend...
Well done Zoecat, like Ashe22 said, you did it, so that is good. I do exactly what you do, everything I do I am thinking of him, no matter what tiny thing I am doing. We need to just keep busy. Have you thought of any hobbies you would like to do, join a club, I know you say you are not very social, try joining a club, as small as it is, or something even on your own, but get into something new to try. I have joined a run/walk club, I am going to learn to paraglide, going to phone them on Monday, and also want to learn how to surf, met a lady at the run/walk club, her husband teaches, so will sort that out for next year.
I had a blow this morning, I was lying in bed with my 6 year old daughter, and she turned and asked, mom when are you and daddy getting married again, my heart just sunk. I changed the subject. She brought it up because not long ago me and her were discussing this, how me and her daddy were going to renew our vows.
When to tell these kids, I do not know, how to tell them, I do not know when. With him working away, it is not obvious to them, they will see no difference.
Anyway moved his clothes to spare room, for when he gets home in 10 days. Going to box up some of his **** now.
Take care and seriously think of a club you can join, or an activity to do on your own. We are a friendly bunch out there, and you might be amazed how many friends you find.