My fiance and I have been together since September of 2008. We have known each other much longer than that, in fact we went to college together. Same major. We were both coming out of horrid dramatic relationships and both werent ready. I dont know how it happened but it did. Sometimes I regret it.
I feel like hes always been controlling but I just looked past it stupidly and thought to myself "he means better".
I cant handle it anymore. We cant even have a conversation without him talking (yelling) over me and telling me i'm wrong (i'm always wrong) and claiming that all I want to do is fight and I know what buttons to push to get him going.
I have never had a problem getting alone with anyone in my life. He is the hardest friendship/relationship I've ever had. He is a veteran from Iraq, that has a lot to do with it I'm sure. The amount of anger he has is unreal. He doesn't get alone with anyone in his family (they have their problems too undoubtly).
I've been called every horrible name you can possibly think of by him. He is verbally abusive. Calls me fat and lazy. We tell each other we hate each other all the time. If I could of known what kind of person he was back when we first started dating, than I would have backed off. I feel like I'm in too deep. We moved across country together to work the same jobs. All the credit cards are in my name and charged up past their limits. I cant leave. We sold my car. I feel stuck. I want to stay at this job, I want to stay in my house, (we have horses and chickens too) and I want to keep my new friends. I'm not leaving.
But on the other side I feel so unhealthy. I feel abused! When he talks I hate him. I dont want him to touch me. We used to make love multiple times a day, now we only do it when he wants to (I never do).
My parents hate him. The rest of the family loves him. Grandmas and aunts want to know when the big day is. Everyone is so excited except for me. When I look past problems and try to do something fun like plan the wedding, we argue.
He truely brings out the worst in me.