Re: Domestic Abuse.
i'm not feeling in a good place, v emotional.
dad is quite poorly so can't come in person, mum's no help.
dad suggested I talk to husband & tell him he either does the abuser programme or I want a trial of 1 mth apart - he said go to him& mum.
dad said he'll ask my brother ( lives nr dad) to come up & help me - he has a big car.
then,at the end of the mth if still he won't do the programme look at filing for divorce.
hubby has said AGAIN in his lunch break he's no intention of doing any programme. i''ve not mentioned the trial break to hubby yet because Womens aid are ringing me soon.i am scared of his reaction. he smiled, hugged me, i'm sure he thinks he's charming me - scary to see.
I said to dad I feel vulnerable going to them. what if theres a row & they chuck me out. i'm so tired of others having control.
husband was smiley & huge tight - too tight cuddles at lunch & acting as though nothing is wrong.
he said " i'm in separate rooms so you feel safe. it's gona take time for you to feel all your love & devotion to me,i know that".
what is he thinking?? i am never gona feel 100?% safe with him.i'd be crazy.
he looked in our bedroom & smiled, it all looks normal from the door, but I've got a case flat on the floor,& all my documents together.
he just thinks that "this time" i should trust him coz he says "it won't happen again" i said, "you said that last time". "i mean it this time". i'm still finding it hard but can see nothing is changing.
i don't want to have to go. i'm so scared. but nothing's changed.
i caught my neighbour on the front, she's a DV survivor, scared incase she gossips - told her, if he knows i'm talking he'll be livid. i asked her if she hears noise will she ring the police but we're not joined on to her.
waiting for womens aid now, local refuge is being done up so no places.
any advice please? he's thinking he's drawing me in but apart from separate rooms nothing else.