Re: Domestic Abuse.
i'm a emotional wreck. yesterday he got angry coz I said I was still going to mum & dad for a break, the look,sneer, god my tummy flips& tightens, then my heart races.
I keep questioning myself,wondering if i'm being too sensitive,especially as he's been so nice,kind,caring this morning. but I know it's not right to get so scared when I see him building. he said i'm making out he's battering me - i'm not. but he has hit,knocked me down in the past, held me, blocked me in, this squaring up to me - shoulders back,chest in my face, eys bulging,spitting in temper has me fearful of being badly assaulted. it hasn't got to that point but I fear it could.
last night he said again, no programme. I have to reign myself in to stop myself begging him to try. he said "you're just backing me into a corner, you're bullying ME!" am I?
if I stay I feel it'll be like saying it's ok,i accept it. I just can't do that.
I can see it's a cycle having done the Freedom prog. but it is agony trying to step out of it. I would come back if he goes on a programme but i'd need solid proof rather than his promises.
busy day. keep me in your prayers guy's i'm really struggling.