I found it hard to post I'd gone back. thankyou for you messages. I will think about the things said.
if he realises I mean it - any more & i'll leave how likely is it he'll keep himself in control & not do it again?
he looks at me, narrowed eyes, I think he senses I do mean it.
I think getting out a 2nd time might be harder now he's watchful.
(disability means I need physical help to pack/move out).
he does work, does overtime but because of all the debt cycles we've never got much, things are always tight. he's doing overtime again today, I get sick of spending holiday times stuck at home alone.
I've told him I'm applying for a grant with my next Motability car for a lift to be fitted to get my scooter in/out . Dad's heart is bad
so he couldn't lift it when I was there. it made me realise another way husband keeps me dependant on him & it means I'm very limited without the scooter.
I'd opened a sole bank account away from our joint account, a letter came while I was away, he'd opened it
he wasn't pleased.
still can't believe I've been living with this for so long.