hi, happy new year.
been feeling quite stressed, panic attacks last night just sitting with him, it kicks my heart problem off.
he's got a call with the Respect prog Monday & his assessment next week.
I came back because he'd signed up to the prog. I'd said I wouldn't come back if he wasn't on the prog but even though he's signed up(but got to get through assessment still to get a place yet) I'm not feeling like I want to stay.
he's going to be so angry . he keeps saying, I signed up what more do you want? he's drinking more often ( he used to drink every single day up to10 cans). if he realises I want out after he's agreed to go to this assessment/prog he's going to be so angry. he's so sweet & charming at times what if he hoodwinks the guy doing the assessment?
Navy, you keep saying this. A LOT. What does it mean to you? What does it mean in the bigger picture? It sounds like you're pretty sure you're leaving him, but maybe you aren't sure WHEN? And you're afraid he'll 'be so angry' BEFORE you leave?
Or are you afraid he'll 'be so angry' after you're gone and he figures out you're not coming back?
If the former, I get it; I'd be scared, too. Do you always have money in your pocket so you can call a cab, or a phone in your pocket so you can call the police?
If the latter, I'm going to ask you to look at this. If he'll 'be so angry,' once you are away...well, so what? Isn't it no longer your problem? What do you envision happening? Will he track you down and hurt you? Will he harass your parents? Whatever it is, what are your plans for dealing with it? These are the things you have to have thought out, so you act from a position of strength, not panic. Let's talk it out, ok?