11-20-2010, 06:21 PM
Join Date: Nov 2010
| | Re: Please do not be afraid to say it...
Originally Posted by HeartofaPhoenix
Thank you. We have no kids. I have 5 animals that are like family to me though.
I have tried to be strong when leaving, but my family doesn't stand firmly at my side. They just are off doing their own thing or just give me this blank look when he shows up to get me. I've even told my sister. I don't feel as strong as I was and just need someone to help me stand in those moments. I know it's not an excuse, but I don't know where to begin.
I have no car, no license, no job (he let me be a housewife), he maxed out my credit card and scared my closest friend away with his having to tag along and voice his opinion about them when they would come.
I am scared of the next big blow up being a bad one. Like if he freaks out in the car is he going to speed and swerve oncoming traffic again to scare me. He threatens me with suicide. Which I cannot stand.
I just wish I knew where to start.
Start with therapy, so that you can move on from this and learn to love yourself.
You are allowing yourself to be abused, because you don't think that you deserve any better. I say this because I have been there.
Your situation is exactly why I don't understand wives who don't work. When you are completely dependent on a man for money, you lose your power! My husband makes a lot more than me, but if we divorced, I could certainly go back to living alone, as I did before we married.
You're still young, baby. Don't let this ass steal your best years!