Re: Questions for the ladies?
I didn't exactly leave him, it was more of a mutual leaving. And yes, I did spend...oh, about 10 years wondering. So, I finally looked him up one day and got in touch with him. We did get back together briefly, and I discovered that there was a very big reason why it hadn't worked before and wasn't going to work then either.
Until I did that, I'd had this very golden memory of him in my mind, of how he was this perfect Prince Charming and if only we'd made it work before, we would have been so happy together. But when we got back together, that golden memory very quickly turned to...well, whatever the ugly opposite of golden would be. lol
Truthfully, I often wish I hadn't looked him up, because the really great memories I'd had of him from the past ended up seriously tarnished by the pretty awful memories I ended up with from the last go-round. Though the great memories had been tempting, they'd also kind of given me hope that there were great guys out there. That tarnish kind of made me a little untrusting (is that a word?) that any guy could actually be decent.
I think you should really give woodstock's question about whether it's really him or just the lawn in general that you miss. I know if someone had asked me to think about that before I called up that old boyfriend, I probably would have realized it was just the lawn in general, and never called him up.