Need some one to listen me!
First of all sorry, if my English is not good. Its not my first language.
We have been married for 6 years now and I am 28. 1st year we were living in two different countries as we both were students. I joined my husband exactly on our wedding anniversary. Days were beautiful in the beginning, though we had fights then and there on silly things. We lived together 2 years like that, and I found my husband drifting slowly from me, such as not showing enough interest to make any love to me. I thought its because both of us are working and been busy. Meanwhile I got offer to do further studies in a close by city, which is around 3 hours drive by car. I wasn’t willing to take up the offer, but my husband seemed happiest and it was him who wanted me to get my PhD. He promised me that sooner he will find a job there, where I study and will join me. He also promised me that he will come and visit me every week, as I don’t drive. But like all other promises, his promises just remained as “promise”. In the new place I really went lonely. We hardly spoke 1or 2 minutes over the phn and he got busy on his sports during weekends and didn’t have any time for me. I used to find time and take a bus and go and visit him every week, but slowly he started complaining that I am spending money unnecessarily by visiting every week. I got hurted deep inside my heart. I slowly understood that my husband has gone so far from me. Even if I am sick, he never took his time to drive 3 hours and visit me.
Now I want to get out of this relationship, but he doesn’t. I feel its all over and he thinks there is nothing wrong. Its been more than 2 years now since we had any sexual life. I am dying inside feeling lonely and depressed. Meanwhile I got depression and now I am under medication. Nothing seems to be bothering my husband and he is more and more inclined towards developing new and new hobbies.
I need someone to love me, someone care for my feelings. Still when I think of divorce, deep inside my heart it hurts..I am so lost, I don’t have any close family and friendsto whom I can share.
What should I do…….