Re: Will I ever feel "together"
When you get to 80, 30 and 40 and 50 and even 60 will look so good. I hope it's ok for a man to answer. The best you can do is live in the "now" which is the only real place that there is. It means that a person must develop an awareness of what is happening around them. Rather than focus on the past or the future focus on creating the life you want right this very moment. If it hurts walk away from it, if is pleases you walk towards it.
Make yourself the person everyone wants to be near with all of your actions in all of the moments your awareness comes to the front of your consciousness.
All the world’s a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first, the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse’s arms.
Then the whining schoolboy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress’ eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honor, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon’s mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lined,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slippered pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side;
His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank, and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,