In short I married a dysfunctional man with lots of emotional issues.
When my DH & I first got together, there were a lot of red flags. However, I chose to ignore them since he and I had been friends for so long (we have been friends since middle school). For some odd twisted reason, I thought he would be different with me. But I was so wrong!
My DH and I didn't start living together until about a month before we got married. So most of his f*cked up ways didn't come out until after we were married. He doesn't put his hands on me but he certainly is still an abuser (emotionally & mentally). He has an alcohol problem and loses control when he starts drinking with his friends (most of his friends have alcohol issues too). He doesn't know when to stop & drinks himself into a stupor. When he does this, he doesn't come home at all until 10 or 11 the next morning hung over.
I am getting so tired of him staying out all night drinking. Just last night he went out with a buddy. He called me at 11:45 saying he was on his way home...it is 9:34 am now & he still isn't home. He called me & kept on saying "I love you". If he loves me he has some messed up ways of showing it. It's like I married a defiant teenager that shows no respect. Lately, he has been averaging 2 nights a month where he stays out all night. I know whose house he crashes at but sometimes I can't help but to think that maybe he is cheating too.
I can't trust his word...he is reliably unreliable. When alcohol comes into the picture, he has no self control what so ever. I am getting to the point that I want to leave him. I have a 9 month old daughter & I don't want her growing up in this type of environment. She deserves so much better.
I plan on making an appt with a divorce lawyer to be well informed on how to pursue this. But although I love my DH, I can't do this anymore.
Anyone else have words of advice for me?