Opinions: Man at Midlife Wants to Fly Freak Flag a Little
I'm a 49 year old male marketing executive who is a principal in a medium sized company. I'm married to my HSS, and have a teenage child. Like most of us, my marriage has had its ups and down, but we are in the midst of a Renaissance in our relationship, and it's great right now. Most folks would see me as a successful, responsible, buttoned-up sort of guy. That is who I have become at this point in my life.
My problem is that for most of my young life, I was very rebellious. I have fought back against my rebellious tendencies as an adult, because I saw my rebelliousness as an impediment to my success. I recently took a personality test at work, and my chief trait was that I was a rebel. My co-workers were shocked, since this is not how I project myself publicly.
So now I have this overwhelming urge to let my inner rebel come out in some facet of my life. I'm not interested in changing my outward appearance or behavior, as I do have people who depend on me at work and at home. But I'm wondering if there is something I can begin doing that would serve as a means to "let my freak flag fly" a little bit.
I'm not into cars and motorcycles, but I wouldn't be against something like tattoos or piercings that wouldn't be visible to the people I work with. I've just been buttoned-up for so long, I'm not sure where to start, but I do need to start somewhere, and stop denying this part of my personality.
My wife thinks this is my way of having a mid-life crisis, but she seems supportive of my doing something about this. We are not into swinging, but sexually we are open-minded, and not the least bit prudish.
So what do the ladies think I could do to help me climb out of my Clark Kent costume?