It has been 11 years of this.
11 years of "you'll grow out of it", "its not abnormal", "there's nothing we can really do" "plenty of people go through this all the time"
I'm just tired. I had another bad episode last night with my endo. laying on a tile floor in the fetal position at 25 years old, and having to have someone wake my mom up to help me. I couldn't stand up, and when she did stand me up I immediately puked from the pain surging and then spent another 2 hours on the couch writhing, fevering, going into cold sweats, going numb and tingly..its just too much.
I take the Rx they gave me, to no avail, because I'm supposed to take it twice a day a few days before i know "its" coming, and being as there is no set schedule and it shows up whenever, after a month where I was taking painkillers twice a day for over a week for nothing, I can't really do that either. it's not like I don't keep track, I have all the dates saved on my phones calendar, it just does what it wants.
I eat healthy, I exercise, I rarely take medications for anything, and even with their rx that Im not supposed to take anything else with, I have to litterally about overdose on those, mixed with ibuprophen and tylenol JUST to numb it out, I pitty my liver, I really do.
I'm just so tired of it. It prevents me from living a presumably normal life, makes jobs hard to get, and it's tiring to have no dr actually work with me.
sorry, I really just needed a good vent.