But not with me. I was kinda shocked. We were at a family picnic on July 4th and he was talking with my aunt (who's pretty much our contemporary, age-wise). He was telling her how he used to be on Zoloft (before I met him) for a couple of years but then just took himself off it because it not only eliminated all the lows but also the highs. He told her he still has days when he's very "low" but doesn't want to take any meds because of the side effects.
He's never mentioned this to me. I know he's not happy with his job situation since he got laid off 3 years ago. He's struggling to make it independently as a self-employed consultant. He's not a high energy, ambitious kinda guy to begin with; very laid back. I know when he's feeling unhappy with things but this still surprised me. And he's never mentioned it to me directly. I'm sure one of the reasons he doesn't want an antidepressant is because of the libido-killing effect.
BUT as a result, I've been depressed as hell today. I know it's not MY FAULT but I still feel like it means I'm not doing my job; I'm not "keeping him happy." I *know* it's not ME but I still feel like I failed on the job.
I want to talk to him about it but I don't want to make him feel worse.
He's never mentioned this to me. I know he's not happy with his job situation since he got laid off 3 years ago. He's struggling to make it independently as a self-employed consultant. He's not a high energy, ambitious kinda guy to begin with; very laid back. I know when he's feeling unhappy with things but this still surprised me. And he's never mentioned it to me directly. I'm sure one of the reasons he doesn't want an antidepressant is because of the libido-killing effect.
BUT as a result, I've been depressed as hell today. I know it's not MY FAULT but I still feel like it means I'm not doing my job; I'm not "keeping him happy." I *know* it's not ME but I still feel like I failed on the job.
I want to talk to him about it but I don't want to make him feel worse.