Re: my husband's a wonderful man, but i'm miserable
[QUOTE=Country Girl;54107]Gosh, most of us would be in heaven, if we had a man such as your husband! [QUOTE]
Um, no, you probably wouldn't.
I am going through the same thing, and I am at the end of my rope. I feel NOTHING when he touches me, NOTHING-- well, except maybe disgust. Yes, my husband is a kind, generous, funny guy-- but that's what he is, a 'guy', not a 'man." He is weak, cowardly, and truly just let's me bulldoze all over him. And no, I do NOT enjoy doing that whatsoever. I feel more like his mother 80% of the time, and not his wife.
He is horrible in bed, absolutely horrible. I have tried for 8 years to get him to improve, and I feel like I've wasted 8 years of my liffe. He is selfish in bed, not so much in his own needs, but in trying to be " the best I ever had." He has NO intuition, he pays no attention to my responses, just keeps going at it-- half the time, I don't even feel like I'm in the room. I feel like I could be anyone. I feel like a 20$ hooker. I feel like an object.
Then there's his complete lack of personal attention. I have fibromyalgia, and one day while we were walking, he sprinted in front of me. I asked him please, slow down hun, I'm having trouble today. He did...for about 30 seconds. When we came to a staircase, he sped ahead, completely lost in his own thoughts....and left me at the top, struggling to get down. He didn't even come to help me.
So I have cut him off. I just can't do it anymore. And we have done nothing but fight about it for weeks, it's all HE wants to talk about. He begs me, he guilts me, he has accused me of emotional adultery. Know what? I can't effin' stand him anymore. I have no money, I'm flat broke. If I had the means, I'd be out of here like a bat out of hell to start over.