outinthecold

Dark Angel, that is a very nice compliment you gave me.

Sometimes I have a way with words. If I feel it, I bleed it on paper.

If you ever are in trouble let me talk for you.

I have gotten my kids out of so much stuff, not serious trouble, I let them hang but mild stuff, I do have a golden tongue.

Actually, I've been working on several ideas for a book/script.

One of the ways of loving yourself, chase your dreams.

Mine is to make a movie.

I know it is a long shot, a really really long shot but chasing a dream opens up other adventures I have yet seen.

You double hang in there too. I know it is tough, but you do have youth on your side.

Youth is wasted on the young, so old people say.

I say, youth is exhausted by the young, then you get old.

True Love will return, you have to let it go first.

Throw a boomerang wrong and it cuts off your fingers, throw a boomerang wrong and it flies away, I play golf so as to wait all day for that one perfect hit.

Rhea

OITC I picture you in a very "sophisticated" office, cherry desk, green lawyer lamp, rich chocolate brown leather chair...throwing your thoughts onto the comp. Yes, yes you sir do have a way w/words. Congrats on the not letting her tell you where she's going. Glad you're having a better day. Work on that movie script my words for you are...the only dreams lost are those you don't chase. Keep chasing. Better days are coming Chin up. Good hearing from you.

Dark Angel

It's not really a long shot, it all depends on what you want to achieve. Do you want fame and forture? Or do you just want to do it for yourself and be proud of what you created, regardless of what others think.

I try to be a musician. I know I'm a hack, but I dont care. I do it for me, not for anyone else. We sound bad alot of the time, but I dont let it get to me too much, because I had fun doing it.

Thanks for that, I really do appreciate it.

I agree. There are so many times I loose sight of whats really important. Every once and awhile though, I'll stop and truly open my eyes to whats around me. Tall grass swaying in the wind like waves on the sea, the rustle of summer leaves on the trees, the wispering of the tall pines. The way clouds break apart, only to rejoin again in a new form. I stopped and noticed theses things the other day for the first time in awhile. I just sat there for an eternity and took it all in. It really seems to help when Im sad, and I remembered what amazing beauty there is in this world in the simplest things.

Thanks again.

M

outinthecold

Rhea, thank you

I am sitting on the carpet in the basement, I've been relegated to the dark corner of the house.

I took the coffee table in the living room and put it in the basement with me.

The computer sits on top of it, I am leaning against the couch squared off with the TV in front of me.

I have no cable, kids were watching it too much so I cut it off. I rent movies to watch on an occasion.

I watch illegal movies on Watch TV Sitcoms.Com, check it out sometime.

I went to the dunes this weekend up north near Arcadia Michigan. Beautiful place.

Father's day weekend was really nice. My younger kids made me stuff, my second oldest drew a picture of me, WOW was it good, my oldest wanted to take me out for dinner, but we got back too late.

It was good weekend.

The EX called several times, I conveniently forgot to answer the phone.

Wasn't important anyway, she wanted to know about some payment.

I and every guy who gets dumped will be alright.

dcrim

OITC, I miss you. Hang in/on! I spent the afternoon with my son, g'kids...had fun.

Why are you in the basement? It's YOUR house!

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outinthecold

I hesitate to tell you all this, but I had two strange dreams Saturday night.

I had Mexican for dinner at a Restaurant called the "Roadhouse" in Benzonia, Michigan

Chili Renos must have bubbled up in the nite.

First dream, my soon to be ex-wife was involved with my old best friend. Holding hands in my dream. WOW, that was killer to wake up to.

Second dream, she was married to Joe "The Plummer" Wetzel, we all lived in the same house and she had silver and black hair.

Whew, what a night, I woke up in cold sweats

Rhea

OITC sorry buddy...I've been having those types of dreams lately too. Mine either involve the stbx w/someone else or us back together later in life. They ALWAYS wake me up. Every night for the last two weeks. Add that to insomnia and I'm usually a sleep through the night person so having the dreams suck first of all waking me mid slumber in a weird daze sucks even worse...you're not alone.

dcrim

I don't have dreams like that...but the occasional, fleeting thought...sigh...not my problem now...

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outinthecold

What do you do with all pictures and video?

We have an immense amount of photographs and VHS tapes of our lives together.

I love the ones of the kids.

They have a feeling of life to them.

The others with my wife and I or of just her.

I look at them, they feel dead.

An indescribable feeling comes over me. Staring at a stone is the best I can do to describe it.

I wish she would just go.

I have not seen her for almost six days.

I don't answer the phone when she calls, I just listen to the messages.

Different schedules, went on a nice vacation with the girls.

What would you do with the photos and videos?

Rhea

Ugh I don't know. Tons of pics...things, cards from over the years, my wedding rings (gorgeous sigh, I just can't get rid of them yet) uhg...I really don't know OITC, I hate thinking of it...finality...blows.

outinthecold

I thought about just saving it for the girls, after all she is their mother.

They can pack it away somewhere and someday they will want those pictures, videos and stuff.

Yep, I think I will do that.

My memories will be of the girls.

I just don't even want to be in the same town any more.

It will be 11 years before I can move away. My youngest is 7.

I have to wait until she graduates.

dcrim

OITC, I think the storage idea is a good one.

In my case, though, I threw every single thing out that I didn't give back to her. All pix, mementos...everything. No reminders.

Of her "stuff", that I'd returned, I even gave back some food.

I only have one pic of her and it was from my son's wedding and included my brother (xgf husband) too.

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outinthecold

Dave, that is stripped down and lean buddy.

outinthecold

My emotions seem so played out, like playing an old record over and over again until the needle is worn down and I have no grooves left.

I feel like a flat lp.

Flightless frisbee.

A coke and a snickers will make me feel something.

dcrim

Or get you all wired up!

I haven't deleted the pix from my PC, though...I actually don't have that many of her since she doesn't like being photographed. Mostly at family events. One day I'll get industrious and burn a CD/DVD and remove them.

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