Just had my annual evaluation at work. It was the first time in 14 years that I've had anything scored below target. It ended up being above target overall, but seeing those below target sections tore me up a little. They were absolutely valid though, it just sucked that traumas of divorce had such an impact on my work. Guess it could be worse. I've seen and heard about a lot of other people who completely fall apart and quit or lose their job...
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This is pretty normal, I think. I did my best to hold it together at work, but I knew my performance fell. My work was still adequate, but I'm normally an overachiever, so that was rough.
It's interesting that you make that comment about people quitting their jobs, though... I've also realized through this process just HOW MUCH I dislike my job and my boss. I'm good at my job, and he's good at his job, but I hate working with him, and I feel that he constantly holds me to a higher standard than the other staff members, and it creates a lot of unnecessary stress in my life.
It took this shake up in my personal life for me to realize all of this. For a while, I was like, I need to keep this job, because I need to maintain this crazy standard of living because I live in this crazy expensive city. And none of it is making me happy. I don't like my job, I work WAY too many hours to have a healthy work-life balance, it's way too stressful, and i never have any money because this city is too expensive.
So, I've decided... f*ck that. F*ck it all. I've started developing my escape plan. Over the next 6 months, I'm going to save every penny, get a side gig doing freelance editing, and liquidate as many of my personal possessions as possible. And then I'm getting the f*ck out of Dodge. Give up the job, the apartment, etc, and I'm going to bum around Europe for a few months.
After that? Who knows? I might bum around the US for a couple more months. There's so much just here in the US that I haven't seen. It's wide open to me now.