Re: falling apart
I am not in your situation, but I do somewhat know how you feel. I am not listing compariasons, just a little of what goes on elsewhere.
A couple of years ago, my youngest daughter took a spill off of a ten foot high slide at a city park. I was at the base of the slide when this happened. She turned out o.k. It only knocked the wind out of her. She was only three at the time.
Just a couple weekends ago, my same daughter had took a little spill off of a four wheeler that was sitting on a trailer parked at a friends house. I was standing right next to her when she fell, but I was looking the other direction talking to my friend. She suffered some scrapes, bumps and bruises, but she turned out o.k.
A few months ago, my oldest daughter (22), was on I-70 north of Denver (I live in Utah) when the vehicle that she was in had gotten into an accident with three other vehicles. She was the only one out of the whole bunch that had to be life-flighted to the hospital. She had a couple cracked ribs, big bruises, and a slight concussion. Otherwise she was o.k. This was a blessing in disguise because it was then that the doctors had X-Rayed her, they discovered that she had emphysema.
A few years ago, my youngest son (he was 12 at the time, living in Colorado, I was in Utah) was trimming down his belt with a knife when he accidently slipped and sliced his arm open. He required emergency surgery, but in the end, he turned out o.k.
There are more instances where my five children (two boys and three girls), have gotten injured, but I think that this was enough to tell.
What I am getting at is this. It doesn't matter where you are or what you are doing, kids will be kids, things will happen, and they will fall and/or get hurt. You cannot hold yourself at fault for trying to further your eductaion to provide a better life for you and your children. You have strength beyond mine to be able to provide for your yourself and your boys AND going to school. I commend you for your efforts to prepare for a better future for yourself, and for your boys.
Keep smiling. It is your greatest asset. If your boys see you smiling and happy, they will know that everything will be all right. Keep up the good work!