I hate my ex all over again
I mean truly hate, with a white hot fire reserved only for the most despicable in our society. Hate.
I do not know where he is.
I do not know where he works
I can only communicate via FB
He is hurting my children, solely to be an ass. One of my DD wanted a relationship with him, he totally blew her off.
He is neglecting my children because he can't be bothered.
I'm not at the point where I want his to suffer, well maybe, a little suffering wouldn't be so bad, but not really.
I will never, ever forgive him for what he's done to my children. Ever. They are kind, loving, generous empathetic people, and he is causing them pain just because that's the only thing he can do.
And they've stopped being HIS children because no parent behaves this way.
I cannot control his actions, only my reaction. And today my reaction is hate, and I think he deserves it.
(and tomorrow will be better and I will work out all the crap he's dumped and I will take care of my kids, and I won't hate quite as much-maybe)
I'm not going to do anything to him, and I don't' say anything to my children because that's too corrosive. But if I saw him tomorrow walk in front of a bus, I would not call out for him to watch out-and I've never said that about anyone in my life. Ever.
In youth it was a way I had, to do my best to please, And change, with every passing lad to suit his theories.
But now I know the things I know, and do the things I do; And if you do not like me so, To hell, my love, with you! --Dorothy Parker