I was going to post this in the singles thread, but figured it would be more likely to show up here.
I drove across the country to my hometown (Midwest) for Christmas and New Year's. Long story short, I spent some time with a man who I last saw decades ago. I knew at that time (from friends) that he had a crush on me. But what I didn't know is that he apparently still does. He is single.
He asked me if he could take me to the NYE party. When we walked in, he had me in front of him with his arms around me and a smile for his friends. The entire time at the party, he never let go of my hand. He laughed and joked with others, but his eyes barely left mine.
He is SO quiet. After the party he took me to one of the houses he restored (he restores Victorian houses) and I offered to help him stage it. So we spent the next 2 days going to furniture antique consignment stores where we bought some beautiful pieces for next to nothing - which he can use to stage other houses on down the road.
So our date lasted three days - continuously
I feel kind of like you @ne9907
. I'm so comfortable around this guy, he makes me feel safe. He makes me feel respected and yes, loved. I know it is really fast, so I'm taking it slow. I'm attracted to him though. I just can't deal with getting hurt again.
Today I drove back to the south where I live right now. He did the most amazing thing. He knew what radio station I would be listening to, and he knew when I left. He somehow got the radio station to play a dedication from him to me. I am not sure who he paid or how he did it, but this station does not do this, particularly in the middle of the morning.
He never even told me he was going to do it. That is the class act that he is. It isn't about him, as far as he's concerned. That is so different than what I have experienced before this, that I can't put it into words.
Anyway, I was driving along and suddenly I heard the dedication (using his first name and mine). The message wasn't much in terms of sentimental because he isn't that type of guy (in public). But he said... it was worth the wait, and the best 3 days ever, and he is counting the days until next time. That was it.
But the song he chose. He could not have chosen a more perfect song, something that meant the world to me. And I haven't yet told him about my last relationship and how bad it was, how I felt unloved, how I almost always had to beg to get him to even talk to me, and then it would end in a fight. He didn't know.
I heard the first line and then the second line (I know the song) and I don't have words. I wasn't crying, but halfway through I realized tears were running down my face. This man seems to be able to view my soul. That piercing dark gaze. He seems to be able to see my heart. He knows what I want and need and what I want to offer. How did he KNOW?
I don't have words for what that meant. That he could see through me and read me like a book, and that he wanted to be that for me. And now it's all I can think about. It scares the hell out of me.