06-06-2012, 08:10 AM
Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: In Texas
| | Re: 31 years ago tomorrow
Hoosier, you know my story, the ex was right across the street from my new house for overnights with her new bf, who was living with a buddy of his who owned the house there. In my attempts to enjoy my Saturday mornings, cup of coffee just poured, I'd walk out on the front porch, and there was her car in his driveway. I thought all about shoving a potato in his exhaust pipe.
But the kicker was about two months later he moves into my old marital home with my ex and my daughter.
So, anyways, its been nine months now since the divorce. Ive been really lonesome on the days I dont have my girl, and yet dont feel much impetus to run out there and try to find new friends and/or do a whole lot. I am still grieving. Some days are just fine, I feel great, no thoughts of loss or limbo at all. But other times, and most recently my downer days have been about the "right now" for me, and what can I do to kickstart my new life, because I feel like Im suspended in jello and absolutely nothing seems to be gaining steam.
I guess I gotta figure out how to get out there and make something happen for me. I have no idea where to start, but Ive attended a couple of gatherings, and think I am beginning to grasp the finality and scope of the last couple of years of my life.
I hope you can find some peace and personal strength among these days. The additional insult of seeing your ex around the neighborhood is universally unfair.
His delay, is not a denial.