CarolineMRF

Hopefully this time I do not get embarrassed and run again...I think it is part of the "older age" syndrome!!...

Marriage is a partnership where each one of us is each other's burden...It is this way because we adore each other.... This grew with time. I was so madly in love with my sailor when I married him and am still a bundle of mush in his arms.. Ours is a marriage made in heaven... We have sex about three times a week... Sometimes more and sometimes less..... We have no schedule.... Our bodies crave each other and need filling and we screw our brains out... This helps hold a marriage together... It has always held ours...As good as we were then, we are dynamite now... I know what I am as a sexual woman and I let it all hang out... I am good... Darn good.. When you are young, two separate people can have two separate careers... It is so important that they have a special joining point to meet so that they can always find each other....We give each other private space.... My computer and server is upstairs and his is downstairs.. Our house is very large and life is good which I am sure does not hurt us.... Our likes are not always the same, but we compromise without any problems.... I love certain TV programs and he likes Western's, but we have enough TV's to always solve this problem...Yet we meet each night on the porch with the puppies, and hold hands and sometimes make love....This is hot believe me, real hot..

Would I ever bow to him?... Nope, not me.... I am a woman that would not bow to anyone...But I do let him think that he is right after I have turned everything around to my way of thinking..... Then I praise him for having such a great thought... He falls for it every time.... I didn't get this place in life without knowing a thing or two on how to get my man where I want him... I am very big into old antiques and with this being my expertise it has made our life very good... I am far from a dull and know nothing wife.... Actually I am pretty darn cool, but I retain my wild inner self and refuse to grow old.... He is mad about me and I know it... But knowing it, I don't take advantage of it... I love him that much more....

My desires!... Oh how he fills them... I get more oral sex than anyone could ever believe.... My needs are the most important to him.... He thinks of himself second.. Yet saying this I love this man enough that when he was getting headaches from Viagra a couple of years ago, I decided to take it upon myself to change him back to my stud.... I had read a book that said we should masturbate each day to keep our sexual parts aroused... This sounded very wise to me and so I began my experiment with life.... Twice a day I performed oral sex on him and kissed and played with him.... I am sure he thought I was on some kind of a yeah hah pill or that I had flipped out... But that man smiled a lot.... With this I mixed in a lot of hot f****** and have become the leader of the pack.. Don't ever think that old bones are all brittle... I could give any of you young women a good race in the hot sex department... Bragging, no.... Confidence, yes.... I had him start to go to bed nude and found he started going after me during the night.... Well to put it plain within two months I had him cured... He never knew what I was doing.... Threw the Viagra pills away long, long ago.... He is fantastic.... Two year ago we had sex 4 times in 30 hours... That was one hot time...

His wants to him are secondary... Mine are first.... I was so stupid and inhibited that I did not give him great oral sex until I was 57.... I mean really good., get down and dirty suck you baby oral.... Before that it was done after a few drinks and sometimes with a condom.... Now I can do 69 great and in fact he wanted it with our making love this morning... Now we are so good that he has discovered parts of me that I never knew I had... I am in love with this man and sexually we live in a pot of gold....

I believe in love.... I would never take anything from a man.... He would never lay a finger on me, but to love and caress me.... Add a good fingering in me too.... Marriages today suck... Each goes their own way and get together every once in a while for a bedroom screw.... We were two madly in love people.... He was like me.... He was my sailor.... We were so much alike... He was a jock...Great looking and drunk the first time I met him...He made a date with me as he was on leave and had three other dates the same night of our first date.... On that same leave the last day home he also stood me up.... The only man in my life that has ever done this.... And I married him.... The only problem was that he had to wait for a spoiled girl to grow up and it took years.... But it has been worth it as I make love like the God's and would sell my soul to the devil for him.... Not a day goes by and I do not tell him how much I love him and thank my God in heaven for him....

His behavior could never be questioned... Why should it?.... We are one.... We would not hurt each other... We adore the ground that each of us walk on.... How can I draw a line when we have never created a line.... Our line was joined years ago when we married... We both operate somewhat around it, but never let it get to the point where sides are drawn.... Oh, we have had a few good fights and I have opened my way too big mouth.... I then have uttered that never to be said word "divorce" which was so stupid as he never did anything to deserve it.... Yet in disagreeing with me and even though it was my fault, the spoiled child in the woman showed her face... You see, I am me.... I fight me... Only me.. I would die if I lost him... All this shows that the line must be settled early in marriage's and love did this with us...

Detailed description of the word "love"... Love is being able to see some fault in your lover, but shutting your mouth for the good of a marriage.... Love is having to give and take in a marriage.... Love is learning where to stop an argument as is it so important to win?.... Always remembering that winning sometimes can be losing.... Love is being able to find in that precious other half the boy in the man that you fell in love with 53 years ago.... Love it being able to go to the sexiest side of you and turn that man into mush after all these years.... Love is having to endure relatives. This one really killed me, but love won out.... Love is being able to hear from your lover that if you die first that he will follow you, as he cannot live without you...You plead and say don't do that as you have three children who would have to deal with this tragedy.... Love is knowing that he will do it and shutting your mouth.... Love is the sunshine in the morning where it is cloudy out, but seeing him next to you makes this true.... Love is allowing your lover to get twin puppies at this late age in life and know they will ruin all this expensive carpet in your new home training them.... Boy, has love ever been tested on this one..... Love is watching your first porn film and by act 3 of the 5 you have torn your clothes off and are making love like mad on the sofa...Love is knowing that you ejaculated all over it and luckily this does not stain. Heck I would not have cared anyway.... It was new when we built the house, but who cares.... It was hot sex... That same love was so sure that we would not have this happen so we felt safe when we watched the second of the three films we purchased.... We had sex in the morning and thought we were safe.. But again passion got in the way and two fools had to grab two comforters and pillows and went on the floor of the family room and had the most passionate sex while watching the couple screwing their brains out on the television.... Hey love is being able to say f***, **s*y, ***k **i*k and c**t and not be embarrassed...You can do this because you both love it, and you know it turns him on...Lets face it, the dirtier we are, the better he loves it...We all know that a wise woman leaves the lady at the door and becomes his wanton woman in bed...It is part of her that she has wanted to do for so many years and has finally broke free... We women love being his sex siren and be as down and dirty as we can be, but oh, how we fight ourselves...This is part of our two faces of Eve from long ago....

These are just a few explanations of the word love....I find as we age that I am feeling a new emotion,...It is called "freight"....I feel it every night when I go to bed and lay next to him... I feel it in the middle of the night when I reach for him....This emotion,has never been here before and I wish it would go away....But it won't.....It is something new that I must learn, but I don't want to learn it....So I will tell my tale to a computer and let it suffer with me as I watch my lover age in front of me.....I love him more than my own life, yet I can't stop time....

CarolineMRF

If you would have asked me a month ago if I would be writing a post like this, I would have said not on your life... Not me... This is not part of who my husband and I are... But I had to... Maybe by doing this I will save a marriage.... At least I will make some women wise up... I wasn't.... They will be.... When I first discovered the subject that I write about in this post, I knew I had to do something about my new knowledge of my own life... But I drew a blank... What do I write?.. Could I write this?.. Should I write this?.. But the answer was within,.. I must write this... I cannot ignore part of my past... It is who I am... It is who we are.. So I write this... Took a while, but it is now on the computer paper in front of me... I have finally released it from my troubled mind... What I have just written has taken a lot of soul searching, but it is the story of two people in love and even after all these years still learning each other... Maybe it will help someone else in their journey through life... It has helped me understand my sister women more than I ever have in my life... What happened with us that day out to lunch, and the words spoken, happened because they were supposed to happen.... It is part of who I am and as much as it hurt and troubled me it is a part of my life that I did not know... It is a warning to all women that I was completely unaware of... Maybe these words will make some woman more conscious of life and the perils of the other woman.... This is my hope in writing this...

We had gone out to lunch... This was to one of our favorite places.... I love TGIF, but this place never rushes you and it is so comfortable... I wonder if other women find after so many years, that the person they are smiling at across the table is still such a sexual turn on... I still do after all these years.... But they have been good years.... We had finished our lunch and he was having another cup of coffee... I was finishing my soda... He reached over and took my left hand in his right and we talked as we held hands.... Just such an innocent movement of love that meant so much to me.... This is how he is.... Just by looking at me he can awaken the woman in me and I feel it inside my sexual parts.... He leaves me with a twinkle in my eye and so sexually alive.... I looked at him with such love in my eyes... How can I help but smile at him?.... He is this wonderful boy/man and after all these years, I still hunger for him... So many years gone by, and this sexual want is stronger than ever...

As I sat across from him, I knew I looked nice.... Confidence in a woman and knowing she is in her element is all it takes.... Being so sexually happy does not hurt either..... Then we will add youth.... The years have been kind to me and ejaculating has added years to my life.... I looked at him as we held hands and said, honey, within a month I will be 71.. I can't believe it.... Where have all the year's gone?... He commented that I sure did not look it.... It was just such a romantic time between the two of us.... He was so adorable this young sailor I married, and he seemed so young as we spoke.... I did not see gray hair, I saw my lover.... I saw my youth in front of me staring across at me and he made me young again as we glowed at each other.... I looked at this handsome man and asked him a question.... It may have been a question that I have asked before but I asked it again..... Why, I don't know.... This I will talk about later... I asked him "Honey, in all the years we have been married, have you ever had another woman?"... He smiled and took a bit of time answering me and looked into my eyes and said "No".... But then he added the words I was not prepared to hear.... He said "but believe me, I have had more than my share of chances".... This shocked me.... Why, I don't know..... He is a great looking guy with a personality that anyone would die for, but the way he said it sent chills up my spine.... I found myself shocked at what was coming out of his mouth.... We had never been this place in our life before.... Why was I going here?... It was scary and I knew the time was right as he was in a mood of looking back in time and wanted to talk..... I looked at him and said, "OK honey, I love you more than my own life..... Now tell me about them..... Do not hesitate.... I will not be mad, but I would like to know what I have never known and all that has happened".... And he did....

He looked at me and started to talk..... I again told him that I would not be mad to tell me everything. Now I think back and wonder why in the hell I said that.... Why would I open myself up to so much hurt if he decided to tell me what I did not want to know..... Why was my trust so much at this particular time?... Just because I knew I looked good and he looked adorable, was no reason for this show of "I love you so much you could have done anything" bit.... I was not Joan of Arc..... I did not want to be burned at the stake..... Yet I was supplying the wood and giving him the match to light the fire.... Why would I expose myself to the possibility of being told of an affair?... But I had opened my mouth and told him to tell me everything..... I already knew that throughout our life how women has come on to him.... Why was I doing this?.... He started to talk and I became very uneasy..... The die had been cast....

I found myself nervous talking with him about this.. I was now on unfamiliar ground... Once I wondered why I was asking this... Was it over confidence with this time of my life?... Did I want to know what kind of a sexual partner I was?... I just cannot answer that question truthfully, but it must be on my mind or else I would not have said it at this moment..... Then he told me of two women.... One I can faintly remember... I had heard him mention her name in conversations in the past.... I recall that I was alarmed a few times as her name came up more than I wanted to hear it.... At the time I let him know this.... I recall it was enough to make me jealous.....

At different times with his job with the company, he had to take some extra classes in advanced study in his field.... These would usually be evening classes.... He would go at a certain time and come back at a certain time.... I had no reason to distrust him.... Maybe I was not cautious enough for that time in his life... I should have been more aware of the fact of what a sexy man and good looking man that he was...Believe me he had the kind of looks and personality that a woman wants...But I wasn't... I was blind.... He told me of a conversation with a nurse..... She was in his class for the 8 week or 12 week course he had taken.... He said she would hit on him just about every day to go out for a drink after the class.... Of course I asked him if she was good looking.... He smiled and said yes she was, but," honey I did not go".... With his explanation of this little adventure I had my fill of his past, and was relieved and looked at him and smiled.... Then he began another time that had taken place.... Part of me was saying let this go.... Don't push this... Nerves were stirring, but I shut my mouth as I would be more troubled not knowing..... It was my big mouth that had started this..... I was to blame for this conversation.... So wisely I shut my mouth.....

I can recall hearing the name of the next woman he told me about.... I will call her "Sally".... This is not her name but OK for this post.... This was about 15 years ago..... I had heard her name mentioned both when talking to my husband at work, and in conversations at home.... As I recall he said something once that irked me.... She was with another company in another State, but the two companies worked very closely together.... He had told me that she and another man who I knew, were traveling to her company for a meeting.... They were going for the day, but coming home that night. They went and had lunch with Sally and her friend.... They were both from the same company, but I did not ask if her friend was a male or female..... It really made no difference.... He came back home and I don't recall ever talking about it again.... But I do recall his talking to me about her and that she was a college graduate and had a big job with the company.... I asked him if she was nice looking and he smiled and said yes.... Of course, this really made my day.....

He told me that they talked frequently on the telephone.... As far as I know this was work related and done from his office..... She knew his hours and when he was in his office...... He said one day at work she called him..... She was in town and was at a hotel five blocks away and wanted him to come over and be with her..... She needed him sexually..... She pleaded with him to meet her..... There was more to the conversation, but he spared me this.... I knew how sexually hungry she must have been for him..... This minute as I write this, it tears me apart..... She wanted him and was willing to come this far to have her sexual appetite appeased..... He told her no that he just could not that he was happily married.... What else was in the conversation, I will never know..... He said that was the end of that..... He said that very shortly afterwards she transferred out of the company to another branch..... He did not talk to her again....

I had never known of these two stories of my husband.... I have never been as shocked in my life, but I do believe him that he did not have an affair..... I would know if he had slept with another woman.... I will never get over the effect that this had on me..... I was blind to my man's temptations..... I could have lost him.... This happens all the time and now to find at this age that I, too, have this in my past truly blows my mind..... Then my questions started within..... Did I know that he didn't do it?.... Yes, I swear this on his life..... But he did enjoy the thought and telling me about it... This I could see in his eyes as he spoke of this.... To think that another woman wanted my husband sexually and wanted to do what I do with him that desperately, is just about too much to bear..... It is so hard for me to accept and still I have seen it in the eyes of other women as they looked at him over the years.... After all these years and just finding this out, so many things go through my mind..... It stays.... I can't kick it out... Maybe I'm not supposed to...Maybe it is a new awakening in my mind.....

Now my other question.... The big question... What if he had an affair with a woman and he told me or I found out... Could I stay?... Could or would I let him go?... I have thought this over so carefully and yes I would stay.... If he truly was sorry and this was once in a lifetime mistake, I think I could handle it.... But what would this do to me as a woman?.... Would it send me out to have the first affair of my life?... Without a doubt the first thing I would have done is lose weight, but then I think I would have shown him that I, too, can do it.... I don't know..... It could have turned me loose to be that woman that I fear inside me.... That woman that could be as hot and as wild as the wind..... I just don't know....

Last night when we were watching TV, he had the puppies with him on the sofa.... One on each arm sound asleep..... We have such a good life and they adore him.... He is their master... They are now a year old and each around 11 pounds and full grown.... I can't get enough of this man since that day at the restaurant... It is like I am trying to make up for all that I wasn't.... I don't know why as I am more woman than I have ever been in my life and he knows it..... But he looked so hot as he snuggled each puppy in his arm... I went to my knee's and bent over him..... He had wide lounging shorts on and a pull over shirt..... No underwear.... I pulled up the side of the shorts to expose him..... That was all I needed.... They had no zipper so I pulled them down and low around his boys..... Leaving all that he is exposed to me to enjoy.... As he watched me, I pleasured him over and over..... As I sucked him and licked him up and down he told me what a woman I was and how I can thrill a man..... I love making love to him.... For a good twenty minutes I loved him for all my life, and for all that I didn't do years ago....

This morning I woke up moaning.... My lover was between my legs pleasuring me... While he was eating me, I again went to that place in my mind of what if I did not have him loving me like this..... Even if I had found out that he had an affair, how could I give him up?.... This was the man I loved and what if I had lost him?... This was my thinking as I made love to him.... The orgasm's came over and over and I was a wild woman of sexual need..... He let me ride his tongue for a good two minutes and performed his miracle of passion on me... It felt so good that I did not want it to end.... I found myself both in my mind and in the mind of the woman that wanted him...I was fighting off that woman that wanted him and found a place within that had never been there before....

That day at the restaurant changed my life... The pedestal lowered.... I truly realized how lucky in life I have been.... I can never forget this.... I am not supposed to.... It has given me a deeper perspective of life.... I now think of other women who have been torn apart by affairs....This is something that I never thought of before....But I think of it now.............Even at this late age in life, I keep on learning..... It never stops........I changed that day when he told me this. I will never forget it. It is good that I won't... It was to be my newest lesson in life. I will remember it well....

CarolineMRF

I have this posted at the top of my News page on my site....I love it....It is listed next to my Avatar..

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CarolineMRF

I have never in my life been so aware of the part in life that a woman's mind plays on her acceptance of life as I am at this age in my life....I guess more than anything that I have expanded my own thought process in finding this new part of myself....A year ago last September I was banned from a site...It just about destroyed me....I did nothing wrong, but to argue for the right of my passage into life....Difficult as it may be to believe, youth did not believe in the knowledge of sexuality of the aged... I was among the young and there I learned the art of gang war....This is called the "ignore" factor.....It happens when if the person comes on the site you leave...After I did scream my fury, I was banned from their Garden of Eden... I was given the ultimate damnation...They took my identity....I became a Nomad.....My lesson that I learned in that year experience is: Age does have a barrier....This was something that I had never encountered before....Now my new lesson in life is that I have had to learn to accept this in my mind...I found that I had to do this in order for me to proceed in life...You see in the battle of youth and age, I am the loser....Yet in my mind in being a loser, I am the winner....For I did not give up...I fought for my cause and will as long as I can type out my words of explanation...In my new thought process, I have found things about life that I would have never known....Amazing new facts of life.....I have now discovered a new part of this creative woman in me, who has now been born....In ways I feel like I have only just begun........

This new awakening of life has been a challenge....Probably a bigger challenge than anyone can imagine...So many things have changed about me....Believe me, I have a hard time handling them...Sexually I am young, yet my body ages...Believe me this is more confusing than anyone can imagine....Yet, I can't regret this happening...If this would have never happened, than I would not be writing here...I would be part of the very silent minority instead of a woman with a cause...It is my intention of making women aware of this wonderful sexual life at this age...I want to tell them that I am hotter and more orgasmic then I have ever been in life.....In this thread I want to speak of words on aging for women...I will do a thread on Menopause...How to handle a man when he starts to become impotent....How to live and not collapse into the thought that your life is over....Things that other women have written me to thank me for what I have given them I want to share here...To me, these are things that a woman of my age should write to help the younger women in life...

CarolineMRF

I wonder how many relationships go bad because people forget to remember the daring thrill of youth?...Maybe it's because I can't feel age and am lost in my place of wonderland...Whatever it is, I live in heaven...The craziest thing is that in less than two months we will be married 51 years...And I don't know where the time has gone or even why I am writing here...But I am...Maybe because I am the happiest woman in the world and wish to share my road in life that I have taken getting here...Or maybe because this love that we have should be shared to let people know that it can happen...Here is just one instance that happened yesterday:

We are in the midst of some remodeling...Something we should have added 7 years ago when we built our dream house will now be accomplished...Truthfully, we never thought of it...It was too expensive and mind boggling at that time...We are now in the process of the dry waller's being here...It has been a nightmare...Yesterday just before they went to lunch, my husband asked me to cut his hair...I said yes and he brought up the barber set...You see I do this in the kitchen...Been doing it for 47 years...Later when the workers had gone to lunch and I was sitting here at my computer he came in and stood in front of me...He had laid the barber set on my big desk U shaped deal amidst the clutter and just stood there...I asked him what he wanted....He said that I had asked the other day to cut his hair...I guess I looked at him like I didn't know what he was talking about because I didn't know what he was talking about...That is until he smiled down to me with his next remark...He said that I had remarked that I was getting a mouth full of hair every time I gave him oral sex...True statement...Horny man...I looked back at him and knew that we had again connected....So I proceeded to put the #1 attachment on the shaver so that I would be careful that I wouldn't nick him yet cut him down good...Hot dam...It was hot...I then proceeded to have the time of my life...After I was done, I gave him the hottest oral sex that he has had in a couple weeks....It was about as hot as it can get...And believe me, I smile as I write this...

It was then that the heat of lust took over...Two fools in sexual urgency that headed to the bed next to the computer...Twin puppies were ignored as they were moved to the other side for our love...There in the guest room and without any foreplay we became animals in their setting...No lubrication just a wild sexual pounding...Hot, you have no idea...It was passion at it's height.....You know, screw my brains out baby, hot....It was only when he got up to get his pants on that he noticed that the Queen size Forest Green bedspread that we had laid on, had paid the price for our sins...In our haste we never thought of covering it....I mean I had left a puddle and he had pecker tracks all over it...But lord what fun...Needless to say, it has since been washed...

When I think back to when this happened, we threw caution to the wind...We knew yet we ignored the fact that the two workers could be coming back...Neither of us mentioned it....This, even now I can't believe...But, believe me...I would do it again...He is my purpose in life...The person that completes me...At times, my lord and my God...I wonder how I dare say that it is with pride that I can write that after all these years that I have the power as a woman to do this to a man?....Yet humility guides me....It is with me every step that I take in life....Without it, I would fall.....This is the reason I write for women....I want to show them the path that I have found...

On the safe side, ours is a very large home...We did know that the workers would be going down to the other end of the hallway from the foyer to the master bedroom when they came in....We were down the other way a good distance away....But saying this, it was the thrill of the happening...This same man and woman of long ago who still crave each other's bodies....The erotic mating that makes a marriage what it is...A noon quickie that was unexpected that makes us who we are....

Years ago when I married my husband, I promised myself that despite the children that I would never let him think he was second best in our relationship...This has not been easy, but I have accomplished it....It is now, at this oh so precious age in life, that I reap my reward......

CarolineMRF

Four years ago, I never knew the word Tantra... If you would have asked me what it meant, I just may have said it was a color...I guess this shows how sexually backward that I was at this time in my life...But I changed, boy have I changed...Now if you would ask me what Tantra is, I would say that it is the most erotic and sensual love making there is....Saying and reading these words that I have just written, is another shock to me...You see, four years ago I never knew sex as I do now...I was but a shell of a woman...Now I am wild as the wind...

It is funny speaking of this exercise in sexuality, as I never learned it nor knew of it...I just found that I was it...Oh, every once in a while we will leave this place of soft and more gentle sex and venture into some wilder and more daring acts of love...Yet it is the slow sexual touching and bringing our bodies to the pleasures of passion that just plain drives me wild....And may I add, when I am driven wild, so is he...I am sexually unleashed....I believe a woman holds the keys to the kingdom of her sexual pleasure...This is the secret of happiness in a woman....Her eyes glow with the passion she feels......She is able to go within her soul as she releases every binding that holds her...This new freedom allows all the heated woman within her, to give of herself and find this place in time...With this ability, she is able to bring her lover along for the ride that she has created....Her lover glories in this new woman in want, that he is seeing....For she truly is free and has touched her soul...She has released her orgasm for her lover to see and bind them with a love that escapes eternity...It is a closeness that can leave them both in tears....

When I first became this person that I am, I had no idea of what was happening to me...I was different...I felt different...I could not write enough about our hot sexual love that was overwhelming me...Nor could I get enough sex...It was as if I was awakening from a deep sleep and found all the missing links in life...I now knew of man and woman and all the sexual joys that they could ever have...All of the sudden, every dot fit in the right place...Sex was no longer a question in my mind...The answers were now in front of me....What I had known and done prior to this, did not touch the tip of what I now knew....At the time that this happened, I had started posting at a Forum...I was so full of love and these new feeling of sexual joy that I couldn't contain myself...I had to speak of what I now knew...It was like a new light bulb had been lit inside me...The words of love poured out of mind...They had to be written down.....I recall I had to watch everything I was writing there...Come to think about it, I believe I set a record for posts being moderated...I didn't know any better...I was writing about a woman in love... I was so overwhelmed with this new passion and hot love that I felt, that I had to write of it...This is what Tantra does to you or at least it has done to me...With this new me many things about me changed, but that is another story and really not for this post...I recall a woman from that site wrote me and told me that she thought I was Tantra.....She said that I was lucky...She said that I had become like a Sex Goddess....She told me to get a book....It was by Margo Anand...She said to read it...If you were to ask me now after paging through the book, and now knowing what I know about myself, I would say that she was right...Scary, but true...However, at the time I looked at it, I never read it...I looked at the pictures and read what I thought was interesting, which was not much...I am just not into this kind of thing...I guess I am more down and dirty sex....This woman who wrote me has since written a book and is very wise in sexual knowledge....You see, I did not know who I was...I had changed so fast and so much and all my years disappeared....Where they have gone, I have no idea, but I know that I am the happiest woman in the world...I am able to make a man hunger for my love as I crave his....We both are Tantra....As I changed, he changed....Without even knowing it, sex took on a new dimension in our life....

I have paged through the book on Tantra, but nothing about it is who we are......We do not chant....We are not yoga.......We do not burn candles......Nor do we wear special robes.....Heck, we are normal people who love life, enjoy our family, raise our twin puppies....and mess around a lot....Believe me, life is good....

What happened to me with this new awakening, was a new me....A softer and kinder woman....One who sees things that she never saw before in her life....My mind never stops....It is like I am writing a story of life every minute of the day....Lest I forget something...When I go to our place of love making, I look at him as my beloved...I want to pleasure him first as he would want to do the same thing to me....This has brought on a new sensual awareness in who we are....Yes, we do look into each other's eye, but it is in deep sexual mating when our eyes tell the story of a meeting of our mind's....They speak knowingly of the orgasm that is going to take place...Knowing me, there are always some erotic words of love mixed in with our conversation...I will raise my body and move to join him without saying a word....I find that sexually hungry spot within to let this special part of me open.... I welcome him and join my beloved in this place called heaven....I feel this in my soul as I give him all that I am as a woman...He returns the favor to me with the lust of an animal in heat....Our sex life is perfection......His pleasure's are my pleasures, and my pleasure is his ....We are truly joined at the rib....

Being this way, I have lost this part of me that knew shame...I believe every woman is born with this....By casting this off, it enables me to open up to my husband from the inside out....The word embarrassment does not exist in our sexual world.....We know only pleasure....When we make love we live in a place of lust and happiness...Later we lay in each other's arms and search each other's soul....We are one....

This is the new me that I have known for four years....She had a hard time fighting her way out of her yesterday's....Her main problems is that she fears youth...They do not understand age and she has no age....Now that I can get past people, I can accept me for who I am and try to help women...I guess this is my true purpose in life...I like it this way....Guess, this is who I am...

Caroline

P.S..As far as the "Sex Goddess" thing...This is who each one of us women are....We just have to find it....

asgoodasitcanbe

I just did a post to a woman and I want a part of it here...It speaks about life...

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Hi DameEdna: There is nothing sadder then seeing the distress of two people you love...We will be married 52 years in a few months...I don't know where the years have gone, but they have disappeared...We have been blessed...We are more in love today then all our yesterdays, but this is us who I speak of and not your parents...Actually I have a Topic on this site that I think is married 50 years...Unfortunately, I lost my password and couldn't sign back on...

Because of my experience in life I know all the years of love...I have seen many people in your parents situation...Most of the problem starts around male menopause...This is a word that is seldom spoken of, but for many men it can be worse than it can be for a woman...This being when their potency comes into being and without proper help from the woman that loves them it can be a rough time in life that eventually both of them can regret...For some unknown reason they think that the true love that they used to know and love has died off and this part of them is gone....Unfortunately, it is a part of them that when kept nutured can be more erotic and mind boggling sexual than any time in their life...

How can you help them?...Try taking them back to their yesterday...Find those places in time that they loved...Find their old sex life...This is the binding in a good marriage...It is up to your Mother to make him whole again...Tell her that a man ages far more swiftly than a woman...Grab him now while he is still young and hold him tight...When she see faults in him not to tell him about it, but to accept it and treasure their time together....

I wasn't going to post here anymore, but seeing this sadness in the post I did want to put in my two cents...I wish you well....

Caroline

MsLonely

This is great, sexy, hot, and sweet, this is marriage!
2 thumbs up!

In a wonderful marriage, there must be a wonderful wife like you!

greenpearl

Grab Me As You Go...

This is my wish too!

I can't stand the thinking of living alone. My eyes water and my heart chokes when I think this kind of silly things! At least let me go first, but then I worry about his life without me............

I read it somewhere, it says that couples who are very much in love with each other usually go together. At least it comforts me!

Happy for you!!! Very happy for you!!!

Izabella

i read stories about it also.
my parents were married for 39 years this may,they been together though since they were 15 years old.my mom just died at the age of 57 three weeks ago.
my dad is staying with me and my family,he has never been alone before and i dont ever want him to be.he just lost his best friend,wife, mother of his children and his lover,im scared he may not be around long without my mom here.my heart breaks for him.

i now think of the what if's of losing my husband,and its scary,it can happen at any age.

greenpearl

Let's not think about this, it is too heart choking!

Let's enjoy them now, let's cherish them now, let's do sweet things for them now, let's be happy!!!

Izabella

caroline,
i been reading on this forum for a little over a year,but just joined.i read your post from last year.i enjoyed them and i have learnt from them.your a smart woman. i would love to read more from you.

greenpearl

Caroline, is that your name? Can we call you Caroline?

I believe touching romantic stories do exist, there aren't many, but they still exist. I have read that a young man and young woman ran away together, they lived on a mountain alone without people around for more than 50 years. In order for her to go to town easily, he made a road from the mountain top to the bottom. I still feel heart warming now I think about this couple.

To me, you are real and true. I can feel peace, love, and joy flowing from your posts. No people can fake that. Happy people write happy posts, unhappy people write unhappy posts.

We as young ones need to learn from you, we need to learn from your experience and you have to help us here.

We want to avoid as many mistakes as we can, the only thing we can avoid mistakes is to learn from wise people who have been through what we haven't!

greenpearl

Please don't make me sad. That's the same about us. My husband and I never want to be popular among people. When we are old and pass away, I want him to bury my ashes under a flower tree; he wants his ashes to be spread in a mountain stream. But who is the one to fulfill the other one's wish?

I am going to stop thinking about this. You are going to stop thinking about this too!

Pandakiss

i read this entire thread 2 month before i joined, and i have been looking for it since i joined.

i thought it was so loving, and i shared it with my husband and we talked about it for the rest of the nite.

its rare to see such love and compassion between husband and wife.

we have always felt the same way, in death i wanna go wth you, wait for me on the other side. ive told my h if i go first you better not join me in 4 months.

but i thought it was just beautifully written

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