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- 16-20 yrs.
- Sexual Orientation
- Bio for TAM: Married since '99. I thought there were big issues from the start, she dismissed them, and I wanted to believe I'd chosen well...and I could compensate here and there to appease her anxieties.
She'd act angry at something and snap at me, and I never understood what had gotten her upset, then two days later she'd apologize, had a bad day, etc. And she kept starting projects that she could not finish - so I finished them. Home remodeling, for instance, something I do slowly...for 14 years of our marrage! I somnambulated through it - somehow, "doing stuff for her" should appease whatever the thing is that I can't see, right?
Something snapped in 2013, I woke up and realized I was not living any sort of life I'd have imagined and I was a fool to think I could improve anybody's emotions, or even affect their actions. Knowing I/we could not do this on our own, a counselor was engaged.
I have learned a lot about me, some problems I've been causing, but also that there's something deep in her that simply won't change, and "almost anybody" would have a hard time dealing with. Someone whose entire decision-making is based on fear. We were told, about six months ago "Most couples would divorce, given how little you have in common and how little you want to do together". We've both been told "figure out how to be single".
I don't want to D. I want to give things time to improve. But at 60, I don't want to give it *much* time.
My fear is that I don't know how to "get a life", so my focus is on learning how to socialize. A weird thing, contemplating being single and seeking a companion, while still being married. The legal contract is important to me - I won't cheat. And I"m not lonely when alone...but I think everything is better with someone. Even if she's trying to be distant...but somehow addicted to being with me, legally if not in real life.
What a long strange trip indeed.
- Edging slowly closer to the frozen tundra
- * Anything aerobic and outdoors
* Playing music, even if not all that well
* Seeing the human presence and interaction in all that "stuff" like market dynamics, hiring practices, the provision of services, food trends...to me, seeing the "big picture" of a trend means one is connecting to the very fabric that binds all humans together, and gets one closer to understanding which thread is "me".
- Several. "Sound dude" for many music festivals and local bands. As a consultant, business process development for small independents. Clearer of land.
- There are three kinds of business. Your business, my business and God's business. Whose business are you in? -Byron Katie
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|10:50 AM - Ursula mentioned DustyDog in post Re: Adults on the spectrum? |
DustyDog The brother of the ...
|09:28 AM - Ursula mentioned DustyDog in post Re: Adults on the spectrum? |
...s for the book rec, DustyDog; I'll have a look on...
|11:10 PM - sdoiuasd mentioned DustyDog in post Re: Big trouble in Brooklyn WW/ WAW |
DustyDog right, spot on. The ...
|01:37 PM - Holdingontoit mentioned DustyDog in post Re: The immovable object. |
DustyDog: Great post. Thank ...
|02:54 PM - BetrayedDad mentioned DustyDog in post Re: For the 40-60 crowd: how do you spend/budget, etc? |
You're problem DustyDog is very simple. You'...
|01:40 PM - tropicalbeachiwish mentioned DustyDog in post Re: For the 40-60 crowd: how do you spend/budget, etc? |
DustyDog My H & I don't use...
|01:10 PM - brooklynAnn mentioned DustyDog in post Re: Financial separation? |
...hanks for the reply DustyDog. The reason I was a...
|06:17 AM - brooklynAnn mentioned DustyDog in post Re: Financial separation? |
DustyDog, do you both have ac...
|08:46 AM - blueinbr mentioned DustyDog in post Re: How do you "break the news"? |
...her even more. DustyDog She should receive a...
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|05:59 AM - brooklynAnn mentioned DustyDog in post Re: What does it mean to "be compassionate and take care of yourself"? |
DustyDog, you want to learn m...
|09:28 AM - brooklynAnn mentioned DustyDog in post Re: What does it mean to "be compassionate and take care of yourself"? |
DustyDog, when I tell someone...
|03:52 AM - MJJEAN mentioned DustyDog in post Re: Splitting bank accounts for an unusual reason? |
DustyDog, have you tried actu...
|03:08 PM - notmyrealname4 mentioned DustyDog in post Re: Splitting bank accounts for an unusual reason? |
|11:10 AM - Rocky Mountain Yeti quoted DustyDog in post Re: Something fun |
20 years. Flipped off like...
|10:56 AM - DustyDog quoted DEMI6 in post Re: Something fun |
Is it less & if so. How lo...
|10:53 AM - DustyDog quoted Ursula in post Re: Adults on the spectrum? |
I've tried to help him to a...
|07:51 AM - DEMI6 quoted DustyDog in post Re: Something fun |
The many ways in which she ex...
|09:02 PM - Elrin quoted DustyDog in post Re: Of Two Minds - continue or end? |
Before the next quote, I'll m...
|03:51 PM - DustyDog quoted jelly_bean in post Re: Help solve an arguement. Sex during separation. |
I have been gone for while and ...
|03:48 PM - DustyDog quoted DEMI6 in post Re: Something fun |
What was the most interest...
|11:04 AM - DustyDog quoted EleGirl in post Re: Defrauding a person into having a child |
I think that the point was ...
|02:59 AM - heartsbeating quoted DustyDog in post Re: Women and the need for security |
A realist in some ways. Bein...
|11:30 PM - DustyDog quoted sportsmed in post Re: Question about paying for dates |
I figured it would be a turnof...
|10:28 PM - EleGirl quoted DustyDog in post Re: Defrauding a person into having a child |
In the United States, the gro...
|08:55 PM - DustyDog quoted Todd Haberdasher in post Re: Defrauding a person into having a child |
This has to be grounds for divorce, r...
|08:47 PM - DustyDog quoted heartsbeating in post Re: Women and the need for security |
He is a realist, this is true. ...
|08:45 PM - DustyDog quoted lucy999 in post Re: Women and the need for security |
I don't need financial secur...
|07:17 PM - heartsbeating quoted DustyDog in post Re: Women and the need for security |
Your husband is a realist. S...
|03:59 PM - DustyDog quoted DTO in post Re: Husband Doesn't care about Retirement or Debt Payment |
This is probably not tru...
|05:20 PM - Bibi1031 quoted DustyDog in post Re: Does the Christian God monopolize the afterlife? |
I've always wondered about ot...
|03:10 PM - DustyDog quoted lovelygirl in post Re: Who should pay on dates? |
I friend of mine, 35 y.o. is si...
|01:15 PM - DustyDog quoted Bibi1031 in post Re: Does the Christian God monopolize the afterlife? |
I am very interested in the G...
|11:25 AM - Yeswecan quoted DustyDog in post Re: Husband Doesn't care about Retirement or Debt Payment |
Except her income isn't high ...