walking on egg shells...
Hi Guys. New tot he forum and looking for some advice. Well, it's been one month since I've made love to my wife, we don't even sleep in the same bed anymore. We've been married for 10 hard years and have had 2 girls along the way. When I say,"hard years" I mean just that. 10 moves with her company, bankruptcy, managing the household while she travels with her job (about 1/4 the year), almost bankruptcy again when she started her own business (120k loss in 6 months), I had no idea. we came home from vacation and that Sat. she took the kids and ran, served me with papers 2 days later, I didn't see or talk to the kids for 3 weeks. She has lot's of late nights with her colleagues getting home around midnight, working when she's suppose to be having family time, etc...She is the breadwinner by far and is in a powerful position in her company. Consider her a financial adviser manager helping others with their financial planning. No selling required. Ironic with all the financial debt we have. She insists on taking care of the finances. I've supported her while she's moved ahead in the company, only people who have been there will understand what that means. Each move we've had I was pressured into getting a job right away even before moving in, even if it wasn't what I wanted to do, and usually making around $8 per hour. I am not educated but I work hard a whatever I do. It was very difficult going into an interview with a job history like that until one day I decided to start my own business. It took off right away, I made 80k in my first 6 months. I only stopped to help her build her business. When I got back the market was flooded with guys like me. Now I work 2 jobs about 70 hours a week and when I get home I struggle to complete chores. Anyway, here lately my wife shuts the computer when I come into her office. Absolutely refuses to have sex or make love, kiss, anything. I've been faithful the whole time. The computer thing bothered me so one night I was able to get on her computer and was surprised to find she had been posting on a Christian divorce forum. She was giving advice on how to deal with terrible fathers/spouses. Some of the things she wrote where horrible and very disturbing. All was untrue. I had also read she was planning on leaving me again, similar to the way she did before. Anyway I confronted her about it and she got very defensive and tried to turn it around on me. She said she couldn't trust me anymore and she was just,"venting." I'm a very good father and try to be a good husband. I try to talk to her when I can and finally got to the point where I wanted a date night once a week. We usually sit and drink coffee and complain about people at work. Anyway, back to the kids, our 2 girls 7/9 know that when daddy gets home from work we're going out and doing something special from fishing, horseback riding/visiting, park, miniature golf, swimming, go-carts, etc..something different every time. When mommy comes home she puts them in front of the tv while she's on her laptop. This is most of the time. She does do fun things with them now and again. She is a very spiritual person and I tried to be art of that and she says I wasn't sincere. I asked her to help me and that just made her furious. She runs a mother/daughter book club but daddy is the one who reads with the children usually the book their suppose to read with mommy. Anyway, I feel lost. I can't sleep some nights for fear she's going to take our kids again. I feel like i'm being used and if it was not for my kids I would have been gone long ago. If I take any legal action I'm sure I'll be squashed. She deals with very powerful people on a regular basis attorneys, judges, CEO's, etc...I've suggested marriage counseling but she says no and just goes herself. Anyone have any helpful suggestions? This is very painful so please just things that will help. No neg. Thanks
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