I am trying to initiate more... but it just feels sort of awkward.
Also... and I am not sure other women feel this way, or not... but it is hard for me to figure out to do w/ a flaccid penis.
If it is hard and coming right at me, I know exactly what to do next.
I mean if it doesn't stand up at attention after a little kissing and touching, I am not sure what to do next. I know it is my job to get it to stand at attention, but it seems like it used to be effortless, and now we are both a little older and have been together for a long time, and when it doesn't happen right away I can't help but feel that he isn't attracted to me anymore and that makes me afraid of rejection and less apt to try again.
You just standing there naked is not gonna do it sister. You have to touch him, caress him, rub yourself on him. slid your legs inbetween his, kiss him, lick his ears, bite his neck, play with is nipples, rub his balls, lick his ****, lick his balls, suck his fingers, suck on his lips, lick his lips, rake his ass with your nails, talk dirty to him, rub ur pu$$y against his hip, moan in his ear, let him watch you touch youself, watch him jack off AND lick his balls at the same time.
use ur imagination, read some good erotica, learn how to turn that man on. Ask him to direct you and tell you want to do, ask your friends, get interested in WHAT makes his d@ck hard, studying, watch it, listen to his moans when you touch it or do certain things to it, listen to the sounds and watch the move his body makes. Pay attention to him.