Problems with her past
This is my first time on this website and was looking to get some advice or opinions on a problem which I believe is for me to mentally sort out. I have been with my wife for 6 years and married for 2.
I do adore and love my wife. My problem has come from her past which she has no problem divulging to me about. She started to have sex, at what I felt was quite young (14 years old) and that wasn't really a problem for me. She then seemed to have regular sexual partners till she was into her mid to late twenties (till she met me) including numerous one night stands.
We met and lived in a foriegn country and have for 6 years lived away from her home town, we have now moved back to her home town to live for good, and I find my moods and mental state constantly dampened by being here cause it reminds me of her sexual life before me. In our arguments over the subject she would explain to me that she had sex friends and that she would meet up with them after a night out or mid week along with a few one night stands along the way.
I think that things have been made worse, as I know she used to make a big effort to look good before going out to meet her sex friends, up to twice a week, but we fail to have sex more than 2-3 times a month, (and its kind of reluctantly) and she never makes the same effort for me, that I know she used to make for her friends, who she said emotionally meant nothing to her, that they were just company. I know women have needs. I just feel they should have at least been boyfriends whom she would actually assosiate with other than to just have sex.
She was married before me and again that is not a problem for me as would have been any other boyfriend, as at least I think that she would be having sex on an emotional level and not purely as a physical act, which sometimes makes me feel sex between us cheapened. Being a lad who is heavaly in involved in macho team sports I know how the boys would have talked about girls who they could call up as there banker on a saturday night, and she doesn't seem to think they would have done that.
I know that most of you will probably say just sort yourself out , and I married her knowing all this. I did feel that i did have a hold on it, but it has since come crashing down, since being back in her home town, and she kinda makes a bit of a joke about it, thinking that i should stop being so silly but I find myself distinting myself from her as I cant seem to get this out of my head.
I don't have any trust or jealousy issues with her I trust her 100% but this is messing me up, anyway I have gone on way too much, please be kind when replying and thanks for reading