Well guys... date was... fun I guess. Turns out I have very, very heavy competition with her, her ex boyfriend and a few other dates. She is also outright comparing me to them. Flattering so far, but she's also potentially badmouthing me too. Normally I enjoy the challenge, but this time... I may be biting off more than I can chew - in other words I'm at a serious disadvantage. I'm used to having my advantage for last few years. I think I've been having it easy with the ladies for some time.
Not now... as these guys I'm competing with are very successful men; successful professionals and young entrepreneurs but even younger than me + never married and no kids... and also from sounds of things, they are also quite confident and attractive. I'm also the first interracial date she's been with, which doesn't make things easier. In fact, she made several rather ignorant/racist but flattering comments. Not so sure if I can forgive that... I admit I'm abit disappointed as honestly didn't expect it from her due to her supposed intelligence on previous occasions. Other women who make such comments I leave as friends or FBs/FWBs as I found their lack of common sense/level of intelligence incompatible.
As for the sexual advances, she knew I was trying to do with the flirting/touches and she played along at least, but stopped my hands going too high and didn't give me any greenlights. She didn't outright reject however, if she did I would have withdrawn completely. Either she's playing hard to get or she's not interested physically or my style doesn't turn her on. Can't figure her out... poker face.
I admit my confidence was wavering towards the later night, even though we seemed to have got more cozy. Still, hate to admit it but for the first time in a long time I may have to withdraw as she could be out of my league. It's been two dates, no sex, no kiss, either she's trying to show that she's not cheap or that she's just not interested and possibly leading me on. The competition is very serious, I appreciate her intelligence, poise, style, and confidence, but a woman like her knows her options and I'm put off at the same time combined with her racist comments even if they were expressed as compliments.
Right now even if I am to take her word for it, as I have been doing (at least in front of her - don't worry I play poker too!) I have her attention, but one slip and boom, FZed, and I'll be her next story for the next date to talk about (and I feel like I will at this rate). Divorced with a child and a different race competing with men younger and possibly just as successful if not more. Not to mention the more she'll stick by me the more crap she'll learn about me and not to mention I'm also mentally insane + with criminal record. I've never seen this much competition for some time, like several hotshots in town spotted the opportunity and decided to gang up on her, with her ex realising what he lost.
I may tick several boxes of the kind of guys she seems to go for, but I've crossed quite a few. Nah, I think I may have to let this one go, there's only also so many aces I have up my sleeve. Challenge is one thing, but some odds are just not worth putting your money on. Damn sure know how to pick 'em, last lay was so fking easy she wanted to ride me badly and this one is like trying to line up a shot on a moving target with heavy wind and fog. BAH!
I don't know