Been doing some self-reflection, and I actually wonder... why has every single 1 month plus relationship I had, was with a psycho woman. They always had a few screws loose, my first was insanely violent, the second was ticked off with society, the third was a strong-woman wannabe, the fourth and firth together were more rather 'f--kbuddies-with-issues', the sixth was just utterly strange, the seventh was incredibly insecure and possessive, the eighth is a stubborn-confused-nymphomaniac, and the ninth (during one of the breakups with the eighth before marriage) had a recognised psycho disorder.
I obviously chose number 8 out of those longer-term relationships (1 month plus, not short-term f--kbuddies)... yet, she's as psycho as the rest, if not more so as she's also smart - madness and genius two sides of the same coin.
The question is... why? Is it because I get bored easily and enjoy "interesting" company? Has my first girlfriend paved the way for future relationships as a psycho lady herself? Or am I also... simply psycho?
Because you like the drama? You like feeling like you are "helping" them?
Were you raised in chaos? It took a long time for me to settle down with someone "normal"...but looks like even my beloved has deep issues Life is funny like that.
But as far as "psycho" goes...maybe you just like the "fun" of it all.
LOL aye in a way, but at the same time I dread helping them! Like present!
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Were you raised in chaos?
Hmmm, actually yes, was raised on the streets lol
Guess I couldn't really relate to "normal" girls, I never grew up the way they did, my experiences were rather psycho themselves.
Maybe that's it? =O Heh
But isn't this a mind thing?
At the same time I only felt emotional connections to very few, made me rather picky in the past. I only seem to go for women with issues... what gives?
I grew up in chaos so I dated nothing but bad boys for years. Wasn't until I saw my own pattern that I made a conscious decision to date (and marry) the nicest most boring guy I could find.
Like that girl I like boredom now. Very soothing, predicatable, calm and peaceful.
I grew up in chaos so I dated nothing but bad boys for years. Wasn't until I saw my own pattern that I made a conscious decision to date (and marry) the nicest most boring guy I could find.
Like that girl I like boredom now. Very soothing, predicatable, calm and peaceful.
YES IT IS. It's just what I needed. However, he is a bad boy in many ways he's kinky, rides motorcycles, has tats, and loves death metal. So..bad boy, but nice. Perfect.
Well, the missus most definitely challenges me, no one not even my first could engage me the way she does, does my head in she does! Hell do I like pain? Heh
And yeah, I've always been a "bad boy", but I never thought I would eff up a normal chick, I just didn't see anything in them for long term potential.
The curious thing about the missus is that she's a 'good chick/bad girl' packaged in one with both extremes. One side she's very principled and strong, other side she's manipulative and insatiable. Yet, I fell in love...
My mates once always gave me sh-t:
"You won't fall for someone unless she can kick your a-- in a fight"
"Is she psycho enough for ya? You psycho ----!"
Yet I don't know, perhaps it's a rather unhealthy way to live and date. Perhaps self-destructive... guess I got lucky (I hope), but what if I didn't meet my wife, I wonder what would have happened.
That's heady stuff and fun for a while. Eventually though you grow up and it's not so fun anymore. That's where you are. Realizing that those challenges aren't so great on a day to day basis. At some point you need rest both emotionally and physically. And sadly she doesn't see that.
That's heady stuff and fun for a while. Eventually though you grow up and it's not so fun anymore. That's where you are. Realizing that those challenges aren't so great on a day to day basis. At some point you need rest both emotionally and physically. And sadly she doesn't see that.
I agree. Its all fun and exciting until its draining and exhausting. Posted via Mobile Device
Apparently, you are attracted to these women or you wouldn't ask them out. I'd probably run for the hills after one date with one of them. Being bored with normal is something that is interesting to me, because I am the complete opposite. I like zero drama in my life. I like to wake up to a sunny day, go to work, come in, relax, etc.
RD, reckon you have poor personal boundaries and that’s why you take abuse that others wouldn’t. Life/marriage is not all about patience and tolerance, empathy and compassion although they are very fine qualities in a person. But without a mixture of intolerance of certain behaviours then the abuse just goes on and on. In essence it’s what we don’t tolerate that defines who we are in “concrete” terms. We save ourselves from abuse where others cannot save us with our boundaries of intolerance, our N.U.T.s. And people come to know us by our N.U.T.s. as in “He would never for one second tolerate that”.
I don't know... but yes the missus is actually literally a... NUTCRACKER!
Nonetheless I guess I have given her a lot of freedom only to have to clamp down on some from time to time, she exploits any weakness I have. Also, for a man being intolerant of getting raped 3-4x a day however is equivalent in today's society that he is an "unappreciative lucky bastard"... sad really.
The N.U.T.S. I have enforced are not trampled on, the missus realised this last year when it comes to her trying to get me to bend knee and threw an army at me (literally; our friends, family, counsellors, all on her side). I stood my ground. Sex however, is a different issue. It wasn't until now that I'm protecting my ballsacs (literally this time too).
I just find a strange that if I actually met someone who is a normal good girl, I'm not attracted. If they are nuts or psycho however, I go "hmmmm, interesting"... what gives? If I do break with the missus, it could be a sign this pattern has to break.
Patterns of attraction... 
Life is funny like that.
However, he is a bad boy in many ways 
he's kinky, rides motorcycles, has tats, and loves death metal. So..bad boy, but nice. Perfect.
