Why yes, still standing I think it will... not only that but, if you don't want me, I'll find someone who will
Now I just need to find a way to TELL him without sounding like a bit*h but only like a reasonable woman who wants to take care of herself and be loved. suggestions?
Yesterday he offered to take me to the health club to soak in the hot tub. (good sexy memories for us from when we were dating) I accepted and got ready for that (not an easy feat with the sprained ankle) then he takes a shower at home and says he doesn't want to go. ok, so i unpack everything and shower here.
Put on a brand new pretty sundress, did my hair different, extra special make up. He didn't mention it. The kids however were like "wow mom, you look BEAUTIFUL!!" at least the kids notice. lol.
Asked him to zip me up. "sure" zip. no kiss on the neck or anything. well ok. we went to dinner and he talked about the kids and his work. just good friends. He opened the door for me on the way in, but the waiter had to get my chair.
He asked me while we were there if I'd like to do anything afterwards - I said is there anything you want to do? He said 'no, not really, this is your night honey, lets do what you want to'.
So I took a chance and said - yes, stud... you... in my sexiest voice. He said "that sounds great". After dinner we drove to this place called planet K which is kind of a head shop and insense seller. It's where I get my gonish insense and he said I could pick out a present. I picked out two new types of insense. He said 'is that all you want?" I just smiled and said everything else I need is you honey." the clerk smiled and said he was a lucky man. When we got into the car he said he was very sorry but he was really tired and we came straight home. Did he expect me to pick someting else out at the store? they had some gag gifts (not my style) insense (i got some) books (I don't grow hemp) and some gag sex gifts (he takes those to his friends parties and to events - like a penis squirt gun he fills with either booze or milk) and why would i want that? I feel I was missing something, but not sure what. He gave me a few 'birthday spankings' earlier in play then offered to use his belt on me to give me the rest. I just said for him to remember HIS birthday was coming up the end of march and to give only as much as he wanted to get. lol.
he went to bed when we got home. no cuddle, no kiss on the cheek, just him saying he was glad i had a great birthday and goodnight hun. He then rolled over and read his book. Where did I go wrong?
Note that nothing he did was mean, or spiteful or angry. But neither was it anything more than a roommate or a kind relative. He makes these motions like he want a relationship - singing to me over the phone, taking me to dinner, asking what i want to do after - but then he either doesn't follow thru, or keeps it at a 'safe' distance (like over the phone).
Frankly, I'm just sick of waiting for him. I don't hate him, I'm not even angry any more - just tired and ready to be treated like a woman