I have been married for 15 years. I love my wife dearly, and she loves me. I could see being with no one else. But, she has some major relationship issues that we have discussed on numerous occasions, and she is not making any changes.
The issues are:
--Affection - She has initiated kissing maybe once or twice in 15 years, counting the time we were dating. She sees nothing wrong with this, and it doesn't click that it's highly unusual. She also sees nothing wrong with the fact that as a couple, we've never had a single passionate night where we've made love for extended periods of time. This is somewhat of a foreign concept to her. Granted, now we are in our mid-40s and past our prime, but we've never had any of these passionate evenings where love making occurred multiple times.
--Trust - When she expresses a need, I make every effort to take it seriously, remember it and work on it. When I express a need (emotional, relational, physical, whatever), she completely forgets it time and time again. We have discussed this dozens of times but she is not changing. No matter what need I express, 2 months later is has been completely forgotten and she acts like it's a new concept.
The trust is really the big issue. Let me give some examples.
My wife loves to let our 8 year old sleep in our bedroom on the weekends. It's a fun thing, and I understand why she enjoys it. 4 months ago I mentioned to my wife that it would be nice if at least once a month if we could have a couples weekend.
Well as my wife typically does, she responded and we had a night to ourselves the next weekend, but then she proceeded to forget my request and we haven't had a weekend since. I asked her about it last night and she had completely forgotten about it.
This happens on EVERY request I make. EVERY request...literally. She forgets every request I make and it's getting to the point where I am starting to think about divorce because I can't take it anymore.
About 12 years ago I started to ask why she had no interest in sex. She would claim she is interested, we would have sex, and then unless I mentioned we weren't having sex, she would all but ignore me. This pattern has continued to no end. As long as I stay silent, she slips into her comfort zone and all but ignores me. At one point we had no intercourse for 6 months.
Name any issue/subject in our relationship and it's the same story. I will tell her something important, and unless I keep bringing it up she will completely forget it. This is far, far more than just sex. Sex is merely the tip of the iceberg.
She forgets everything I bring up. It's like she doesn't care. I have no trust anymore. I don't have a clue what is taking place. She is so wrapped up in her own world that I don't know what else to call this other than extreme selfishness.
If she asks for something, I give it. I remember it, work on it, and don't forget it. If I ask for something and remain silent, 2 months later she has completely forgotten the topic.
I think about her all the time. I want to be with her, I tell her, touch her and talk to her. But unless I mention something like, "hey you aren't giving me any time", she could literally go years without wanting to have a couples night, or doing anything romantically spontaneous whatsoever.
In summary...It's like I don't exist unless I scream at the top of my lungs that I'm alive. These "screaming" (not really screaming, but you get the point) sessions are becoming more frequent as I grow depressed and more lonely. I'm at the point right now where I feel I need to completely disengage any physical relationship just so I can keep my sanity.
I welcome any thoughts or feedback. I don't know what to do anymore. All my needs are lost in time.
StrongDaddy - I hope you are still looking at this thread. We had/have a similar dynamc in our marriage - look for PooDoo posts - "What do husbands "need" from their wives??". I got some good advice. Tough to take all the 'your the problem' criticism - I know. I'm not going to change me (become super alpha-male-man) to fix the marriage - so she falls for the 'new' me that's really not me - how does that work anyway? I did need to change some things which you sound like you're open to doing. What's been working (for me/us) is spending much more time with her (alone) - which was a major fail for me in the past. I thought she was happy in our marriage, but she recently confided that she was not and why (took time with her to find this out!). Have fun rediscovering her. Best of luck!