Hi everyone, this is my first post on here. It's a long one!!
My husband and I got married in June of 2013. He was super healthy, followed a vegan diet, no smoking or drinking, and was training for a marathon that he was planning on running in the Spring of 2014.
In Early January 2014, overnight, he developed strange mystery symptoms. He had a massive headache, stomach pain, digestive issues, vomiting, hallucinations, paranoia, an extreme tolerance to cold and complete insomnia for 5 days.
He eventually was hospitalized in behavioral health because of this for 2 weeks, where they got him sleeping with meds and his personality went back to normal. They sent him home with me with medication, (Risperdal and Seraquel) which he did not react well to, so he discontinued use. Their informal diagnosis was bipolar...
For the next 4 months, it was a nightmare. He could not sleep at all, he would maybe sleep 3-4 hours on a good night, had terrible digestion and memory fog, headaches...etc. His personality was okay though, no paranoid states occurred again.
Finally in June, he started sleeping more again but not as well before this incident, also, his athletic performance never returned to its previous potential. We were renting a house at the time, and started looking at apartments.
The week before we moved, my dad got diagnosed with cancer for the 2nd time. I was really stressed about this, and when we moved into the apartment, my husband's insomnia started up again.
He swears he physically can not be in our apartment or he will die of a stroke. He has not been sleeping in the home with me for months now, he sleeps in his car parked somewhere he will not tell me about. He had accused me of possibly poisoning him and starting this whole problem in the first place. He tells me I am always negative and guilt tripping him, and he can't be around any people without feeling symptoms. I've heard many times about how evil people in the world are, and how they are against him.
I've asked him many times to go to the doctor, maybe try different meds, go to a naturopath, stop being vegan, nothing works!!
And I am more frustrated than ever because this last week Monday, my dad passed away from his cancer at age 49.
I am heartbroken, and have no support whatsoever. He just talks about his health problems, how he is going to die in a few days, when I tell him I have seen what death looks like. I pretty much watched my dad's neck rot away from the cancer and saw him get colder and more frail. It was hell, and I really need him at home right now. I just spend the entire day with my mom and siblings for support, I probably see my husband for 5 minutes a day when he stops in the house, says it's giving him a headache and is making him sick, and drives away again.
Should I stick with this or end it? I really don't know what to do...the death of my dad has been the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with, and I see the kind of support I get, and it scares me.
Thanks for reading this...