Thanks for all the replies and suggestions!
No deaths in the past 1-2 years but my life has been pretty stressful.
This morning I hadn't heard from my family (in Europe) for a while and that's when it started. The idea that something might happen or might have happened to them and I'm so far away is terrible. I have since heard from them but the anxiety is still there.
I ended up buying melatonin (husband's advice) which made me fall asleep at 5pm and I woke up at 11pm and can't sleep any more and the anxiety is still there.
Will have to talk to my doctor about this when I see her on Friday.
The bold is what you need. Don't let it go. It can get worse.
I have anxiety and social anxiety. It is possible I had some before my second marriage fell apart, but it is pretty intense since. It takes a huge amount of energy for me to go anywhere outside my residence. I find myself exhausted when I get home.
I try to face my fears by sharing my experiences and allowing whatever responses I get cause me to realize they won't kill me, and are just opinions. I fail sometimes. Other times I gain strength.
I don't recommend it to anyone. It's just what I do because of a counselor telling me the only way to get over fears is to face them.
I have to talk to my current counselor about it. I'd recommend you talk to a counselor, too.
Here is a pretty good article on the subject and links to lots of information.
The only trouble is, if you have anxiety and decide to read this or take the quizzes, it can make it worse. You decide if you want to read it. I don't want to be a part of disturbing you more, but just making an offer to help through education is my goal.
It takes hard work to get over this. Sometimes it takes meds. Your doctor and/or a psychiatrist along with a psychologist, can help.
The first two are a quiz and a test that you can take very quickly.
Again, if you think these will cause you more anxiety, don't bother with them. You are doing the right thing by seeing your doctor. Anxiety Screening Quiz Anxiety Test Anxiety, Panic and Phobia Center - Psych Central
Edited to add: Some of the reasons for my anxiety and depression are in the link below. I have had trouble with depression in the past. I'm not blaming all of my issues on this, just to be clear. I am saying this just added to and intensified anything already there. It's an epidemic