Re: I'm not happy with who I am anymore...
Z, she may not be able to meet your needs. I think both her words and actions are telling you this.
She told you a year and a half ago she wanted to leave? And you begged her not to?
Did you mention that in your original thread?
One of the deepest feminine pleasures is when a man stands full, present, and unreactive in the midst of his woman's emotional storms. When he stays present with her, and loves her through the layers of wildness and closure, then she feels his trustability, and she can relax. -- David Deida, The Way of the Superior Man