Lost and Emotionless
Ill try to make this short. Dont know if I can.
Ive been with my boyfriend going on three years. For the first two I fought for the relationship and the love. I fought to make him understand that he was worthy of love and that I was willing to give it him, unconditionally. Problem is, I feel so drained now. I can ask him simple things and it turns into an argument. And I, just become quiet. I dont like arguing. Its draining, makes me tired and depressed. So many of the things are so trivial, minor but he finds a way to blow them into something major. So, to avoid an argument, I let him argue with himself. I wont participate and he says Im ignoring him. Truth is, it effects me in a different way. I feel sick. In the midst of all of this Ive stopped being sexually attracted to him because of this. I cant lay with someone I am constantly upset with. He has many issue, self esteem etc, that Ive worked on and stood by with him. Is there anything I can do. I now feel like an empty shell of myself, drained sucked dry. Is it worth staying or should I leave. If you need more info, please ask so you can give me a helpful answer. Anything is appreciated at this point. I cant talk to friends and family because they cant be impartial.