06-12-2012, 09:52 AM
Join Date: Apr 2011
| | Re: An Open Apology...
Ups and downs, ups and downs... so here I am feeling sunk again today. I wish sometimes emotions could be turned off like a switch so I could just do the things I need to do daily and work on the anxiety later. I'm just tired of this roller coaster... "I feel good this day, I feel crappy this day". It is certainly not easy to get to a point in my life where I actually can let go of things I cannot control and in turn use that energy effectively working on those things that I CAN control.
At least I got the lawn mowed yesterday heh heh, put that off for like 2 weeks.
I have got to start cooking more meals at home, spending more time with our 2 kids outside playing, working out, etc. Things are honestly getting better, very very slowly. I've let go of everything that happened leading up to last year, I am trying harder to communicate more with my wife about things, but I know she and I both are using avoidance a lot to keep from getting into any sort of argument, and that's not good. Not as bad as it used to be but still not very productive.
Without trust, words become the hollow sound of a wooden gong. With trust, words become life itself.