Looking for some information, or anyone that has had the same feelings/depression as my wife and what it was like for you, how did you come out of it, did old "feelings" return.
We have had a bad run and are currently separated, she is at her parents, and we are having MC/IC sessions, but I want to understand more what it is she is going through so that I don't accidentally make her situation worse.
We do see each other regularly, hang out, do things together and for that short period of time, usually we get on great and I see my old wife in there. However, she doesn't know how she feels about us, she is numb to everything and everyone, not just me....she had a brief EA and PA (kiss), and she claims that was simply to see if she felt anything anymore from anyone. She says that she didn't and it scared her even more, plus the guilt of doing it.
Over the past 18 months, our world fell apart, we lost a good friend, and cancelled our planned honeymoon to be at his funeral, from that point everything got in the way, and we never actually went on our honeymoon. We had major issues conceiving for a child, then had 3 very nasty failed pregnancies. Her grandfather passed away in the middle of the second pregnancy as she was miscarrying, and her life long best friend moved away. Financial troubles hit us too, one of my businesses failed, so we were unable to do simple things like have holidays, and I was having to work ungodly hours to keep it all together.
All this took its toll on her (and me but much less), and now she is in a severe state of depression, sadness, numbness of emotion & suicidal thoughts. She shows no sign of affection to anyone, including her young daughter and states that she just wants to be on her own and take on the world.
That said, she doesn't want us to quit totally, she is afraid that when she actually comes out of this, she will regret it, or her feelings will still be there for us etc and so I'm having to live in "limbo".
We are going to get her on a short course of A/D's and see if that helps. The therapist says that she is suffering from a great deal of bereavement and loss depression, and I want to understand more about how to deal with this, and maybe things I can do to help the process of recovery.
I'm also interested in anyones stories or life events that have been through similar losses and spiraled into depression like this and had the same feelings etc to loved ones.
Thanks to any that share