Re: Are you down with the BPD?
I have BPD. I was diagnosed with it after I nearly got myself killed doing something impossibly stupid that I REALLY don't want to talk about, and then upon realizing how reckless I'd been, wanted to kill myself. I went into the hospital 2 years ago and was diagnosed with BPD immediately upon release.
I haven't had an episode like that in a while. I don't tend to put others in harm's way. I have an on-and-off relationship with mild self-harm and an eating disorder, but that's about it. No broken lamps, no drugs, no threats of suicide, no rampant sex, nothing like that. What it does to me most of the time is bring me into a severe cant-get-out-of-bed depression in a matter of moments, and make me worry intensely that my husband has fallen out of love with me. I never act on my worry except to occasionally ask him, "Hey, you still love me right?"
I absolutely hate the stereotype that all people with BPD are totally unmanageable psychopaths who will rip your heart out through your spine and burn your house down. I try my best never to hurt my husband, and 99.9% of the time, I don't. And when I do I apologize and try to make up for it. And actually, 99% of the time, when I think I've hurt my husband, it turns out it's my own fear and he's fine.