11-13-2009, 06:23 PM
Join Date: Nov 2009
| | last straw about to snap.
so another girl has 'said' she doesnt like me by ignoring me randomly...
everything was going good,we were getting along and randomly one day she wont reply to my texts/calls,wont look at me in class...and im really confused.
this situation has happened 5 times now...same thing, talking, going good, then randomly acts like i dont exist. another situation(happened 2 times) a girl had sex with my friend after saying she liked me and i liked her, and had made a plan to go on an actual date, THE SAME NIGHT.
so the point being, im finding it extremely hard to try to control this depression of mine. I used to drink and smoke alot, but i managed to stay away from it with my own will power. Ive been able to tell myself to hold on, itll get better. Now after this last girl, im breaking apart. Ive already said i quit my youth group(whats the point?) started smoking again, and am bout to pick up drinking and partying again. after 7 times IN A ROW of a girl putting me off like im nothing to the world, im losing faith in myself, i must be a horrible person not worth conversating with anyone....
THis was mostly a rant, because i know noone here can help me or do anything for me, but i just felt like telling someone, and the only person i have enough courage to talk to about this is on the other side of the country for college.