Re: Day One...
Last night was tough. Drank a little too much 'liquid numbing agent' (which is rare as I don't drink to excess as a rule).
Then as I was about to turn off the radio, they played Air Supply - I'm all out of love. Yeah, I lost it. I think (now, in the light of day) it was a good thing. It opened the floodgates and allowed me to release a lot of the emotion I've held back over the last few days.
Woke up this morning (at 3:30am :-/) with a renewed resolve, to not be beaten by this. So as soon as it got light, I was out doing my folks yard work, cutting firewood (but not using the chainsaw, that might end badly. Due to distraction, not depression!) and walking the dogs.
Lunchtime now, but back to chores after that. No time to stop, think and beat myself up.
Going home later, after they've gone, and drawing up my plans, lists for what I want to fix and change at my house.