Originally Posted by Feelingsadnlonely View Post
I admire you for your strength. You're doing a great job. Keep it up!
That is so attractive in a man.
Thanks. (though of course what i'm posting may not always reflect what i'm feeling, when i'm alone and have time to think...
And, to be honest, my 'strength' has not been what it should be or should have been. I've make a lot of mistakes. In the marriage, relationships with my kids, and with myself. This WILL change. I WILL find the strength I need to journey through the rest of my life.
Just living day to day right now. Making to do lists; DIY items, household chore rota (what to clean on what day) to keep me focused and moving. I'm already finding a level of being organised I've not had before.
My counselling kicks off in earnest in a week or so, really looking forward to it. Not pinning all my hopes on the results it may give, but treat it as an opportunity to get my head opened up and see what's in there. A lot of crap to unravel, look at, and make sense of.
Fortunately i'm not totally alone at the house. My dogs keep me company, even if they are very confused that everyone else has gone. And they get me out of the house and across the fields, a much needed diversion.
Not feeling particularly attractive or manly right now, but that will change once I refind my purpose and what i plan on doing going forward. Certainly not thinking about making the mistake of going into another relationship, whether it be an 'overnight' one or longer term. That's not where i'm at, right now it's all about me.