Re: Day One...
Thanks for the words Honcho. And yes, it is hard to have someone you've spent half your life with just be ...gone.
But i'm sticking to the 180, i'm not going to reach out. I have read enough horror stories here and elsewhere about what happens when you reach first. When she's ready, she'll make contact. I don't imagine it will be pleasant as i am expecting a lot of venting of her frustration to roll over me before there's any calm.
I did notice that she blocked me on FB last night, but that seems to have been reversed this morning. Which tells me there's anger, but also some thinking going on.
I am filling my weekends with chores, and house cleaning. The only times i really seem to struggle is in the evenings, when the house is quiet, very quiet, and i have time to let my mind wander if unchecked.
I'm planning on joining a 24 hour gym, so when it gets bad i can go work it off.
Strangely enough, this does not happen when i get to bed. Perhaps because i'm sleeping in the spare room as i won't sleep in what was 'our' bedroom, which has made it easier.