Please advise how to handle this situation for reconcilation
We are married for 9 yrs and have a son 7 year old. We had frequent misunderstandings and fights since early marriage. My husband is a people pleaser and so attached to mother. But I was never close to her . In our society he is supposed to take care of his mother and since I wanted to live separately it was always an issue. Recently it escalated and he left home telling me I never valued his important concerns( mother and his friends). He wanted a divorce after one month of leaving home. I was totally against it. But he made me sign in mutual petition saying he will rethink during waiting period and come back. But now the waiting period is over, I don't want to proceed and I want to withdraw my consent.I love him so much inspite of his weakness(drinking, smoking, chatting with old girl friend, tapping my phone to hear whether I am talking to my mother about his mother) and ready to rectify my self centered ways. But he cant trust in me and fears me since I controlled his life and he wants a divorce and he may come back for living together without a legal bond. But I cant do it since I am a believer.Please advise me to how to handle this. He will not come for counseling nor listen to any relatives or friends..