10-24-2011, 11:15 AM
Join Date: Nov 2010
| | Re: Mistake
So, do you think your gut is right? I guess the one thing I am having difficulties with really, is that when it comes up for conversation, he is very quick to cuss my family out calling them every single name in the book, how bad they are, how they are all hypocrites, liars, my sons are weak, my youngest son is useless, etc. Regardless of the fact whether that is true or not I just don't feel you do that to someone's family. You know its like I know what they are and I can say it but you can't! I would never say those things about his children ever or his parents ever! There is a fine line there! So, how can you profess all this undying love for me while saying things about people that I love and that have been here for me.
His thing is cut them out...show them! How, how can I cut my kids out? When it has been me and them for the last 25 years. I can't and I won't. What kind of mother would I be?!? No, that is not me and he knows it. Cut my mother out completely really? No, I won't allow her anymore to control me (if she really ever did), but cut her out? No she may only have another 10 years left heck for that matter I could only I have another 10 years left and do you think I want to spend it fighting!!!!
He is so quick to get even to settle the score! Why? I am not like that. Maybe I am naive maybe I am stupid maybe I am all the things he said, but you don't hurt the people you love not intentionally. Not saying that I have not cast my own set of stones. I have and I have done things too, but
Oh I just don't know anymore I feel totally crazy! Totally totally crazy. Stay, go, go, stay... move, not move, family, him, boys, grandbaby! Love is not suppose to be this complicated!