11-09-2011, 05:50 AM
Join Date: Nov 2011
| | I need to give me courage
We've been together for 15 years, separated for 11 months.
My wife always has been financial independent. I've been living in her house for 11 years and our daughter is 10 year old. They both are very lovely girls.
I noticed her strange behaviour 1 year ago, and realized that she has an emotional relationship with 12 year older married man. She pretended it isn't serious and she has no future with him. She blamed my selfishness as the main reason for her infidelity. And she proclaimed that I have never truly loved her.
I agreed the guilt was mine, still I was insulted.
After 5-6 months of argues and quarrels she told me that she loves me only for as a father of her child. 3 months ago she started her real love affair with the man. I began to pray day and night and God helped me - she split up with him after just 2-3 weeks.
She called me and told me that she still likes me, but she was very stressed. She shared that she is very disappointed.
I am living 5 min far from them and my wife invites me almost every evening to have dinner with her and our daughter. She allow me to hug and touch her. We watch movies togehter as a family. I help her with the household chores, in her job and mostly for our kid. We have many phone calls during the day. Still she continue to refuse giving me a real kiss. She tells me she is not sure about my love to her, she is confused and she thinks that I am not the right person for her, and she is afraid that she wont be able to love me again.
I am feeling empty without her love and cannot imagine a life without her. I have insulted her few times and now I doubt about my love to her.
I cannot stop wishing her, she has very sensitive personality and feelings, she is smart, lovely and disappointed by all males.
I am afraid if I win her I might insult and loose her again.
She is going to move to her parents and offered me to live in her luxury house meanwhile.
Please, give me advises and courage to win her back.
Do you think there is hope in this marriage?