Re: Annnnd I'm back
So, after being quiet for a while (but still reading through the threads of course) I'm back to square one.
As I said on previous posts that one more breach of the trust in our marriage would end it I have to stay true to my word. This past Saturday I asked to borrow her phone to call mine as I couldn't find it. She refused to let me borrow her phone and when I confronted her about it she went crazy, screaming at me to **** off and saying "I've had enough of this" which confused me because since we have been back together I have not asked to look at any of her social media accounts or her phone. Anyway, I started to lose my temper (which I never even lost on D-day or anytime after that) with her over this and demanded to see her phone as she was acting guilty and defensive and she ends up locking herself in the bathroom with her phone. After about 30 seconds she came out and handed me her phone and said here you go then but it still had the lock on it and she still refused to unlock the phone. After this all of my frustration came out and I told her that she's a scumbag for what she has done to me this past year. She's offended that I called her a scumbag and tries to turn the situation around on me saying that this is pointless because I'll never trust her again and all I do is bring up the affair, which isn't true at all.
So here we are, splitting up again and this time for good. I tried my hardest to work through the problems and also understand my wife's side of the affair. All I can say is that I tried, and I am gutted. I truly believe she has a problem, funnily enough this past month her mum left her step dad for another man without any remorse, this man single handily saved their family from the gutter and that's how she repays them.
I'm now sitting here in dread at the thought of how hard this is going to be. I won't lie I'm scared, I have been through so much heart ache and stress this year it feels like my mind and body are ready to give up. So much for loyalty in marriage. You look after someone, care, provide and give everything you have to them and this is what you get in return.