Still going to marriage therapy for reconciliation and so far so good.
I am very busy with work and so is he but touch base when he is not travelling, spend weekends together going to movie, etc
The other day talking about one of his company trips which took place in July as he is planning another one for another group of staff. I asked what would the itinerary be like and he said there wouldn't be much time to do anything as they had conference all day plus dinners in the evening.
I asked was there no partying at all at the last one, and he said no. He said the hotel was a family place with entertainment for families. I asked was there no live band, he said no.
I know he lied to both questions.
How do I know? I have access to his colleagues FB. This colleague posts photos and videos of events including the staff trip. I saw a video of them all dancing like crazy including my H! He was not doing anything inappropriate. The video has been removed also (strangely). There where also photos of the certain staff relaxing at the pool drinking beer and going on treks into the woods. None included my H though he had said he hung out with these specific people.
I do not know whether my mind is working over time ( I have gotten the wrong end of the stick before and don't want to jump to any conclusions) but why lie? My H has never been very straight up with information and had lied or been sparse with the truth before. This has set me back in my willingness to be open to him.
He has noticed and asked why I was so withdrawn, I side stepped this as I don't want him to know what i know. I also don't want him to know my source.
He left on another work/golfing trip this morning and was very affectionate with me before leaving.
Perhaps it is time for my radar to go into action again. I still don't trust him, will I ever?