Reconciliation with LTR ex-GF
2 years ago I ended a 6 year relationship with the mother of my child. Our son is 4.5 now. I ended the relationship because it seemed like we both wanted different things out of a relationship. We were frustrating each other too much and had few common interests. A lot of it was immaturity on my part. Though I donít like to claim immaturity when I was 30 years old. I didnít want to have to work for anything, including my family. I didnít realize what I had walked away from until it was already gone. I tried to ignore that feeling and thought it would go away. No one likes a break up, but it hasnít gone away.
We both went our separate ways. I moved back in with my parents to save money. My ex moved a couple hours away to an apartment. I have seen my son every weekend since our split. We have both dated, me more seriously than her. I went out with quite a few women, she had more of a fling with a man who is in a group with her but otherwise has not dated (to my knowledge).
I have come back to this place were I want to try and reconcile with her and put our family back together. Ending the relationship was probably a mistake, we (I) should have tried harder to make it work. My ex wanted to try, I was the one that pulled the plug.
Our co-parenting relationship is ok. In the beginning my ex had a really hard time seeing me and letting our son go. We fought over some parenting things. We didnít talk unless it was about our son. She was hurt when I started dating. She doesnít know that Iím thinking about this. I donít want to say anything until Iím sure. I have been trying to spend more time in her life by doing family things ďfor our sonĒ like going to the zoo, etc. She may not even be interested in reconciliation, but I want to try.
I'm 32, she's 26, our son is 4.5. The time apart may have been good for us, or totally destroyed any chance. She wanted to marry and I wouldn't get down on one knee.
Is there a proper way to try and reconcile? Am I hoping for the impossible?